turned maggot

Drama camp has finally ended. The muscle aches are still on-going but I'll survive. I wont comment on the camp as there were issues. Like still no different till now.

Anyways..today totally rotted at home. I woke up at 12pm. I had phone calls coming in between 8am and 12pm but totally ignored every call. I wonder who called. Hmmm.. Had my lunch while watching telly and then went back to sleep.

And here I am! I'm very bored today and extremely tired. Hopefully someone will ask me out tmr and can have lotsa fun! I never really wanted this entry to be so boring. But I'm bored! I need to do something!

Comedy time!!

Thanks to ZEEK. Now,I cant stop watching all my favourited friends videos on my youtube acc. Although I've watched it like a thousand times,the jokes never bore me.

Unfortunately I'm not sure why I cant upload the videos. There's not even a thingy for me to upload the videos. So I shall give you the url and you guys will check out aites! Have fun!

the first video is called Bamboozle. Its basically a game.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HM7vYHZkVZo

Second video is called the trivia game. SUPER DUPER UBER HILARIOUS.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3ShNgZmLd0

Tag yeah!

2nd entry in an hour.

I'm very unsure why I'm feeling down lately. I feel very left out. I'm also unsure whether its just me or am I being really shoved off by the people around me.

I twist and turn on my bed when I cant sleep just thinking about it. I mean I have so many friends(74 to be exact) but why do I feel like I cant turn to them for fun or my problems?

Anyways,I did say to Zam that I might be backing out from the chalet due to reasons. But he assured me that I would have a lot of fun. But what if I dont? What if the past repeats itself? I'm not scared of it but what if the people that are at the chalet arent able to do something about it?

Nonetheless,I should just go and have my own fun. I love my Hirouka crew and it will stay that way. I just need another assurance that I wont be harmed when I'm there. But none of them is capable of doing it. So I guess I'm doomed.

To the Hirouka crew,I wont tell you what happen during my previous visit unless I know you're brave enough to know about it. But I dont think any of you reads my blog. So thank goodness.

I'm crying shit.

Once again I felt like an outsider and being left behind. But its okay.. I'm not being needed in other people's lives anyway.

Jealousy took over me

I woke up at 12pm today as usual. Took a shower,ate my breakfast,watch telly and went back to sleep. Woke up at 5.30pm and waited for mummy so that she can pass me $$ for my haircut. Went to L'oreal salon for wash & cut which cost be 20 bucks.

Which is cheap. The hair massage was awesome!!! And they final outcome of the haircut was gggoooodddd.. Although the style is outdated,I dont give a shit. It'll grow anyway.

So now..I'm pretty much feeling jealous after someone told me something about an outing or that kinda shit. Its like I go to these 'meetings' because I want to get together with you guys. Itslike when that person organises a thing,everyone goes along with it.

But when I try to organise something,no one turns up or no one even bothers to reply my invitations. I know I'm being ridiculous over such stuff but too bad. This happens to be my blog where I express my feelings while still making sure the other party's identity is not given out.

And someone seems to share this new bond with another person. Its like you're completely obssessed with this person. Daily 'appointmets' and that kinda shit.

Most important thing I wanna say to 'you': thanks for cheating my feelings. I appreciate it. You might as well not call me ur sis or even tag my blog. To hell with you.

tightening the ties

Pretty much all my cousins are like leaving me. I'm not so close with my dad's side of the family. But the past few months was great. After my grandfather past away,me and my cousins are getting much closer. It must be my late grandfather who made all this happen.

Cos during the ceremonies,we would all work together and joke around and stuff like that. Recently,my cousins even planned to have a chalet in January and strictly cousins only. Parents not included. We never used to be so excited but from the planning and everything,we got closer.

The past few days I was away at my aunt's house having a sleepover with a few of my cousins. We told each other secrets,relationships with boyfriend and girlfriend and also problems that have been appearing. We had late night sleeeps and I was always the last one to wake up!!!!! No one bothered to wake me up.

Although the sleepover was short,every minute was worthwhile. But then earlier today they had went to Johore to accompany my granny since her house is there. And I'm left all alone here in Singapore. No one to make late night calls to or text or tease. But good thing its just for a few days. If you're away on holiday,get me something k. HAHA.

To the cousins who are reading this in Johore,come back with granny quick. I know you people are reading this. Better tag okay! See you all soon!

I'm running away.

To all humans and other forms of creatures. I would be away for a few days. I would not be online for this few days or be at home. So dont call my house phone.

You can 24/7 reach me at my handphone. If you dont have my number,you can ask around. I'll blog and reply tags again once I return in a few days. BYE!

I damn you

Today went out early in the morning to do some stuff. Then went to meet the Hirouka people at 1:45pm. Not exactly meet. I arrived but there was no one there. Then one came after the other.

So we headed to Changi Airport for the aircon,lunch and planning and confirmation for the upcoming chalet. It was really hard to get people to say either a 'yes' or a 'no'. Then talked about the food and the price and stuff like that.

I was still abit pissed over something that should not be mentioned here,but Nizham indirectly cheered me up over some stupid things that he did. AS USUAL. right bro? LOL. After the discussion(mostly shouting and screaming at each other's faces),played hide-and-seek. Very bad sia you all.

Then me and rina like very lazy to entertain them. Besides,we didnt know where they were. So went home lor! LOL

Reached home and there I was on the couch sleeping. Very tired you know. Whole day walk here and there like lost soul. Bathed around 8pm then watch SOCCER!!! Jeer at me all you want for Man U had lost. But I dont care.

Arsenal was really good and they deserved it. But its okay. Its not like Man U's gonna lose all the time. I was pretty sulky towards the end of the game to the point I didnt want to talk to anyone. Very childish right? I got no sportsmanship mah! How like that?

Then watch some other telly. And I just realised that Samir Nasri is UGLY! Not so ugly la,but just not charming. Oh well..what do I care? Random..

I'm about to smash my head against the wall.

Can someone like find the answer to why I'm having headaches? Every day when I wake up from my sleep,there's gonna be a huge painful headache.

It happens everyday and it lasts the whole day! But when I go out,my head doesnt hurt at all. Is it because I sleep like more than 10 hours everyday? Shocked? Yes I usually sleep at around 2am and wake up at 12pm.

It hurts like ****! I'm really sick of it and I feel like smashing my head against the wall or swallow like dozens of panadols at one time every time! Its not like my whole head is in pain, its like patches. One moment its on my right,the next is on my left then it goes to the top of the head. But the pain is unbearable!

Its been like a week! I ate panadols and the pain only goes away for like a few minutes. My head feels super heavy too. Thats why I'm like looking for people to go out with me. Cos the pain goes away.LOL

When I cant take it anymore,I try to sleep. But the pain just keep getting back at me even harder. So tell me people,whats the cause of this pain? I cant take it anymore.

Anger management

Yesterday,I text my cousin telling her that I would be going over to her place to visit my granny. So she said OKAY! Today,once I arrived at her doorstep,I knocked the door very hard and there was no answer.

Her windows were close so I cant go to the window. I called her house phone like so many times,nobody answered. I called her phone and she said that she's on her way to her auntie's house. PATHETIC SIA!

I didnt wana express my anger to her so I just said,"oh okay nvm". GRRRR!! So I headed home!

The least she could do was give me a call or text me. Or at least leave my granny at home. But nobody was in the house. Reached the bus stop and called mommy. I was pretty much shouting on the phone although my mom didnt deserve it.

I had to travel about an hour just to reach her place only to reach to an empty house! I was obviously sulking on my way home. People smile at me,I look away. LOL.

She did apologise but how could she just leave her house knowing that I was coming? URGH!!

I'm back at blogspot!

Apologies for the abandonment of this blog. Have been doing nothing cos I've been sitting at home for the past two days. Haiish.

Anyways,today went shopping at Bugis Street and Paya Lebar with the cousin. Bought two tops both priced at 10 bucks. I was so amazed by how cheap it was. LOL. I dont like to go to Bugis Street,so I dont know(!).

But I had to for the sake of new clothes. Oh well. So currently,I only have about 5 pieces of clothes. 3 are for going out and 2 are for when people come to my house. I dont know how else I'm gonna survive with 5 tops. Well,that means more shopping!

As you all may not know,I'm actually wearing a headscarf,so all the ugly short sleeves and unwanted clothes are given away.

Moving on..I would like to THANK CHERYL DE BONG FOR THE TERRIFIC BLOGSKIN THAT SHE HAS SINGLE-HANDEDLY EDITTED FOR ME TO MEET MY INDECISIVE NEEDS. GOOD JOB! lol

So..a couple of things are to be done this month. One of it is CHALET!! Then there's weekly weekend outings with TJ clan and some more outings with random people and also drama camp. Not looking forward to the drama camp honestly. I think I've lost the touch of acting. But oh well. I still love drama,so go lor! I wonder how I'm gonna survive with just 3 tops? Haissh.