just life

Today I owe Aizat a minahrep(ah lian) post,but thats not gonna happen today. Promise you by end of this week. If you do not know what I'm talking about,maybe cos its got nothing to do with you. Haha

Mom has officially stopped me from going out and to start hitting the books again. Basically cos I've not been studying much and spent alot of my time going out. Give me a break la! I miss my TJ clan!

But then again,its my fault. We agreed that if I study,she'll let me go out. But I didnt,so serves me right. Besides,I've spent too much money. I'm broke now.

I know my blog entries sucks at the moment. Well,life is mundane yet hectic at the same time. The same crazy routine everyday. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of education. I'm sick of rehearsals. I'm sick of crap. I'm sick of EVERYTHING! I need a REAL life for once.

Till here.

keeping the faith

Yesterday went to Zoo in the morning.
Went to Ikea and Courts at Tampines in the evening.
Bed at night.
Pictures taken at Zoo might be uploaded. If so,soon.

This morning was really moody. Reason being: PERIOD! and some other stuff. The day went pretty well. For once I paid full attention during English lesson. And my Oral Exam is like this Wednesday! Initally was on Thursday but I have an SYF tech-run on that day. Today slept in POA class. And then went home!

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin'
But there's a voice inside my head sayin
'You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shakin'
But I,I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

Chorus:There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast i get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on there other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facin'
The chances I'm takin'
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on

Chorus:Cuz There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast i get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on there other side It's the climb

Yeah

Chorus:There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast i get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on there other side
It's the climb

Yeah

Keep on movin'
Keep climbing
Keep the faith
Baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

no more bestfriend

Tired.
Exhausted.
Lazy.
Sleepy.
Angry.
Frustrated.
Disappointed.
Worried.

The words above pretty much sums up yesterday and today. Unhappy with someone. You know who you are. I'm not in the wrong yet you still say I am. You're ridiculous. I HATE YOU! Go and f her for all I care. I'm no one to you for the past 11 years. You're just a piece of shit to me from now on. You may step out of my life before I give you hell.

have it your way

Today was so boring! In the morning had some reflection crap and watched Hotel Rwanda. At 10am went for tea break then IPP briefing and the exercise. Initally my class had to merge with 5a3 at their classroom but mr nasir gave us permission to do it at our own classrm.

It was rather fun doing the exercise. Me,cheryl and navin made the toilet. 5 star toilet you know. Got door and roof somemore. LOL. Took some pictures and then we settled down. Ouh and we planned on the class tee. Happy with the designs!

After we settled down, switched off all electrical appliances and everybody kept quiet. 5 mins later,switched back on the fans and watched the continuation of Hotel Rwanda. So much for IPP exercise.

After everything was done,went to...

Went with hakim,navin,both nabeels and miss izzati for lunch. Stayed till around 4pm then went home. Slept in the bus like there's no tmr. SLEEPY!! And now here I am. Okay. I shall go to sleep now although its only 5.30pm. BYE!

SDC trip

Today had a fun trip to Singapore Discovery Centre. IT WAS FUN! Seriously.. Let the pictures do the talking for the first time.

When I looked at how dark the sky was,it felt like dooms day was coming.

Then it rained heavily.

And then there was this. HAHA. I'm sorry acha. Please dont kill me.

Then there's the people that want their faces to be taken. I moved the cam. Dammit!

At the Army Museum. A typical bunk in the past in Tekong.

The tank.

The different flags of I dont know what. Ask Navin!

And thats pretty much all for the Army Museum. Did not really take alot of pictures. Was busy walking here and there,listening to tour guide and taking pictures of ourself. So,let the cam-whoring pictures flow!

And finally...

Till here. I'm going to bed. Bye!

Spare me the pain

I'm exhausted.
My brains are about to explode into a million pieces.
Am not in the mood for camp.
Unfair,sec 2s get to campout.
We're stuck in Loyang.
Not fun without Cheryl and Hakim.
Motivational workshop was fun.
Especially the part where the speaker just talks and talks.
Inter-class handball was awesome.
5a1 champion.
Like as if anyone cares.
They got boo-ed throughout by sec 5As.
We were told off but we didnt a give shit.
Some bitch lost her cool.
Shouted at us that its only a game and said,"BLOODY SHIT!".
She said its only a game,why lose her cool in the first place.
Stupid.
Prolly cos they were boo-ed bad. Real bad. Real real bad.
Arisa fell on her left breast.
Cried like shit.
Hopefully it doesnt decrease in size anymore.
Atmosphere was awesome.
Shout here and there. Laughters.
Gave support.
Played my best.
At least we weren't defeated.
One win and two draws.
Proud of 5a2.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
Shove it up your ass dude was not a man of his word.
Neither supportive nor positive.
Tomorrow will be trip to Discovery Centre.
Somewhat looking forward to it.
I'll end here.
A few more seconds to brain explosion.

Urgh!!

MY MISSION TO CONVINCE YOU HAS FAILED. GO AND JUMP OFF THE BUILDING LA,JACKOFF!

Random post on watches

My morning was disturbed. Had to go for religious classes. Then came home and slept. Yes,I'm a pig. Woke up and had headaches. And btw,I'm still having the flu. No medicine taken. Then I msg-ed around asking people where to get leather watches after seeing them in magazines. LOL.

Oh and I have fetish for leather watches. Dont ask why. I'm just weird. And I got weird answers from Wyelin. Earth! Musthafa centre! =_=" Then got a reply from Zeek-bugis or far east. Well,I wanted to go Far East tmr,but cannot go out. Why? Well,mom says so. Maybe cos I've been going out too much in the holidays and did little studying.

Then Farhan said at Tampines Mall or Century Square. And so I went with him. Just Century Square. I'm tired of Tampines Mall. So we went to every watch shop found on the ground floor. All the watches I wanted was like 30 bucks and above. Whereas my budget was like only $20.

Then there was this thingy in the middle. I dont know whats it called. Just outside Montip. Checked it out & I love it! So bought it at $16.90. I know its like wth.. But I could not wait any longer! I've been wanting a leather watch for ages!

Then we cabbed home since both very lazy to take the bus. Finally,I've got what I wanted! Till here.

To Farhan,thanks for accompanying me. I love you bestie! It's been a while since I last went out with you. Tell me more stories and gossips yeah! LOL. Takecare everybody!

Btw,this entry is for Saturday's post. Not Sunday. Its just that I only felt like blogging at 11:45.

Han River's WATERFALL

I love these babes to bits and pieces. Today went to Han River at Easpt cos Mdm Halimah wanted to give the class a treat and also bond. Yeah we did. Among our own groups. HAHA

Had a great time cooking and burning the food. Yes,BURNING. Me,Cheryl and Wyelin were the surviving man-eaters. Thats what Navin said. Even when the boys finished eating,pretty much everyone else too,the three of us were still eating. Not full yet.

So we ended up eating lots and lots and lots of prawns. Wyelin did some experiment with the tom yam chilli and it turned out nice. Then Cheryl stopped. Left me and wyelin. Then he moved on to desserts. After that then we stopped.

Right now,having a hard time uploading all 118 pictures. ITS THAT MANY! I cant install the Active X Control cos it needs the administrator's password and my sis is asleep. So have to go the trouble of uploading 5 pictures that take approximately 15-30 mins. HOW SICKENING! You guys better appreciate all the time and effort I've put in.

I wont entertain anymore photo request after this. It will all be in Facebook. Back to Han River. So,bit by bit people left. Hakim left the earliest due to his dance practice session. WHATEVER!!!!!

In the end,left Me,Navin,Cheryl,Wyelin,Akbar,Sufi,Rahman and Mdm Halimah. Took a photo then off we went home. Initially wanted to take more pictures with Navin,wyelin and cheryl,but as you all know,there's no view or scenery in Simei,so we went our separate ways.

Came home and took a shower,relaxed and went online. I'm so sleepy! I tried to zip the folders for the photos since 7pm so that I dont have to upload on Facebook which is taking hours. Tried zip here,there,everywhere. Mission failed. So gave up and forced myself to upload on Facebook since most of my classmates wants it and it would be easier for them to just steal from the album instead of asking me to send to them.

So now I'm still uploading. Have 50 or so more photos to go. Wish me luck. Multiply AutoUploader is not installing! Whats wrong?!!!! Till here. BYE!

And here's the remaining survivors!

+ Rahman.

Nizham stepped on my shoe. Jackass!

I survived! Yay! So today was a bit better than yesterday. But I've lost my voice. Mom doesnt even care that I'm sick. TSK! Did the face paint today. Most of them had irritations once they washed it off. Pity them. Luckily when I wanted to use,the face paint finished already.

As me and Momo was sweeping the floor,we had this convo when I heard that they dont want to use the face paint since there were bad results.

Ayeesyah:(in a soft voice) Yes! They're not gonna use the face paint!
Moses: Yes! Haha! replace with wall paint.
Both laughs.
Ayeesyah: Use Nippon!
Moses: Nvm. I prefer we stick to face paint.

It may not be funny to you,but it is to me. So..bug off! After making the dance studio sparkly clean(thanks to mine and Momo's efforts!),I went to e!hub with mamat to meet the Hirouka clan. Joked around and Nizham stepped on my shoe.

I hate it when people step on my shoe. It may only be everlast and cost me 55 bucks,I still want it to look clean and not like it has been trampled by Nizham's shoe. Thanks ah Nizham. I'll get you back ah bro!! You just wait...

Then went home. Slept in the bus like a princess. Then home sweet home and took a shower. Tomorrow will not be going out. FINALLY! Instead,Ain will be coming to my house and accompany for the day. Thankies babe! The past few days have been going out and alot of cash spent. And I need rest!

Cant wait for my first ever class gathering on Friday. I miss Qi Jun that Jay Chou wannabe! Till here. There's a typhoon going on in my nose. I need to go and check it out. HAHA. Random. See ya!

voice of a man

Huge pain in the head! I need panadols!! Today woke up and I've officially lost my voice and my nose in trying to stop me from breathing. Sorry to Reverandom family,I cant make it for today's outing. Some other time yeah.

So I still have that stupid drama homework to do. Yes,its not done yet. And I have to be ready in like half an hr. So,looks like I'm gonna be late. I dont feel like going but I've got no choice. Today is the only day where we get to see ugly face paint on each other's face and then laugh it off!

Till here. Hopefully I'll manage to succumb the whole day before I collapse.

oh!! the pain!

Woke up today with a super bad sore throat! And I lost my voice in the morning. After thousands of strepsils shoved(haha!inside joke) inside my mouth,only regain it back a bit. Thank god Desmond didnt say anything. Pheww!

Then went to McD with Nizham to have lunch and catch up with him. Yes,I went with the sore throat. Cannot help it la! Cravings.. Then met Zeek to get my memory card back. Alot of explicit pictures! Haha.

Then went for drama and it was one of the most boring sessions ever. All we did was practice our face paint on paper and then call it a day. I dont feel like going tmr but no choice since they gonna try the face paint on the faces tmr.

And then we were told to do another round of colouring at home. And I was like: WHAT? I'm suppose to enjoy my holidays! Coming back to school for this crap is bad enough and you are putting me through the shit of homework?! I dont even have god damn colour pencils at home! Besides,I've not even done my own school homework!

Apologies for the vulgarities. I'm so frustrated. So after that went to Popular to buy freaking colour pencils that cost me $2.15 for a small pathetic box. Before that,called Cheryl to accompany me but she was sleeping her ass off like a pig! Who's the pig now? Haha. jkjk.

Then off back home. I had a great time sleeping in the bus. The guy next to me also did. Haha. He was putting his head on my shoulder la! I didnt even realise. I only woke up when my head hit the window hard.

So right now no one is online. Well,there are but nothing to talk to them. So calling Farhan now to use him since I'm bored. Lol. Till here.

in agony

Today went to Vivo with Cheryl,Hakim and Zikri whereas we meet Wyelin there. Walked around looking for a bag for Cheryl to buy and pay half of it for me.

First shop was M)phosis. Browse through the bag that Cheryl wanted and it cost about 73 bucks. Quite cheap ah. I'm sorry I didnt buy the bag for you. Well,the main purpose was to look for a bag for me. Alot of bags that I had chosen and wanted.

Can still remember that the most expensive bag that I wanted was 300+. Tried,look in the mirror then check the price. Shocked. Put it back and walk off. LOL. Then finally choosen the one at Mango. 75 bucks. Then walk around and see got any nicer ones then went for lunch.

After eating and burping,walk around and window-shop heading towards Mango and meet Wyelin and bought the bag. Cheryl and I paid half each. Cos both of us are buying bags for each other's birthday which is in 7 months time(??)! Haha.

So if the bag exceeds 50bucks,then we split the amount. Been bragging to her that I want a New Urban Male bag,but she dont allow cos too costly. I understand..but I want it! HAHA. joking.

Then walk around again here and there and finally headed home. The rest was taking the bus so I tagged along. Although the journey took like an hour plus,I love long bus journeys. The longer the better. Reached Tampines int around 7:15 then took bus 38 home and saw Nisa and Alice.

Then dropped off and rush to see Farhan. Sorry dude. And off back home. Right now feel like vomiting. I have been having this sore throat since morning. Kemp! Dont tell Desmond I got sore throat. Or else he'll lecture me for not taking care of my voice. Although its just a slight one,I'm so afraid that its gonna become worst tomorrow. Furthermore I got SYF sessions tmr. Urgh!!

And I cant wait to see Nizham and Razi for lunch tmr! I miss you boys badly! See you. Had so much fun today. I need to sleep. Bye!

Pictures of today are at Cheryl's blog. Please go and see. I very lazy to put here. Too many to upload. And the photos in Cheryl's blog,well..there's alot alot alot more than that! Happy laughing your ass off just dont discriminate. *smiles*

Bet 'cha wont be reading till the end

March holidays have already started but to me its no holiday at all. I still have to be back in school on Tuesday and Wednesday from 2pm to 5pm. Obviously for SYF drama. I'm gonna die of intensive acting. So watch out for my funeral invitation yeah.

I dont know why Desmond(my instructor) is not commenting much on our acting skills. Clearly our voice projection sucks,there are still diva-thinkers and there are still people who refuse to listen to instructions and take things seriously.

Pretty much the ones that I need for SYF are gone and the ones that are a nuisance are here to stay. Life is hell in the dance studio. They blame others for putting them through this shit but never blame themselves for what trouble they have put drama through.

Most of you must have already know that I got no more passion for drama. I did say it to Desmond and I'm glad that he understands because of the things that I have to deal with that has got nothing to do with drama. For example,their behaviour.

And this tuesday and wednesday's session,well...I'm not ready for it. I dont want those people to ruin my week free from hustle and bustle of school life. I know(and so does Desmond) that they always talk about me behind my back and cursing me and stuff like that for being too controlled over them.

Too bad its the nature of my job. I'm the stage manager. I volunteered myself to be one. Teachers and instructors agreed that I'm fit for the job. So you people have no excuse to say that I'm controlling you whatsoever because if you cannot control yourself during sessions,who else gonna do the job?

And whats with the losing of focus? Once you're done with your line,you get back to the real-life character you are and wait for your next turn. You think acting is so easy? For god sake, it almost killed me the last time I did that and I broke down!!!

Remember the Portia character that I had to take on,kemp? It was a lawyer-like character and you always see them acting on tv. It looks simple but I cried when doing the role. Why? Because once you lose the momentum of the character,you cant get it back so easily.

Or lets take for example a sarcastic character. Even a dumb person can pull off the character,but what about the actions leading to your lines? You have the sarcasm when delivering your lines,but what about the actions and movements before,during and after that?

When you're on stage,you are to forget the real-life character that you possess and be the only one person that you are suppose to be,your character!

Glory!

Currently watching the match between Man U vs Liverpool. It is killing me everytime Liverpool scores a goal. Right now is the 83rd minute of the game and the score is 1-3. 1 being Man U.

Its okay. Still have 7 minutes or so for Man U to score two more goals. Nothing is impossible!Maybe today is Liverpool's lucky day. Besides,Man U is still at the top of the charts,so no worries!

To all Man U fans,lets start singing the 'Glory' song for Man U. They might need it.

And to Liverpool fans,especially Fad,dont be too complacent. Its just one of those days where you emerge victorious but still you'll never emerge at the top of the charts.

Start kicking thoses asses Red Devils! And I should have worn my Man U shirt. It might bring some luck. Haha.

And now the score is 1-4. To navin and acha,dont be too happy. Liverpool still suck. Like I said earlier,its just one of those matches where they are lucky. Cheryl,start chanting so that Man U can win! LOL.

talkative girl talking.

Pity Cheryl. Cheryl didnt get to see her fave teacher for the last time. Haha. Nvm. Still have Mr Teo. LOL. Anyways,yesterday had the issuing of report books and meet the parents session. Most teachers said I was a good girl *wide grins*. But I didnt hear that from the English teachers.

I got a C6 for my English so mom wanted to meet them. They said I was talkative and stuff like that. Its not my fault that Cheryl always make me laugh in class okay. And we always come up with different stupid things to say. And mom threatened me that she will change my place if I dont show any improvement. I said : NO! I dont want. This happened in front of the teachers and they agreed with her. KANASAI LA!

Then went home and slacked with Fad and TJ clan! I miss them so much. Mom ordered kfc and mcD's as usual. So tonight they will be coming over again to watch the match between Manchester United and Liverpool. MAN U GONNA WIN! Man U fans will be at my house,except for Fad who supports Liverpool.

Thats all for now.

To you,I dont know whats got into you. I've tried every possible thing I could to get you to come to your senses but it just wont do. We may not be drifting apart but the situation you're in now,well,makes me want to move away from you. I find you disgusting! Your actions and the way you speak to me. I dont care whether girls like you in that way,I know I dont! I know friends should be there rain or shine,thick or thin. But if the friend in trouble,dont want to help himself,what can the helping friend do? I miss the old you and I need the old you that always care for me. You know I'm never gonna leave you,so take that chance and change for the better. It's about time.

Tags will be replied here.

wyelin: He'll fail his exams. Trust me, he keeps walking here and there in school. He doesn't look like one who studies either. Just come to sch for the sake of coming and smoke his way to graduation..

Reply: Why cant the school just like suspend all this people. Such a nuisance to teachers and the school and US! Haiz..

haKIM: HAHA. The post on tues, march 10 is sooooo MY LINE!!! HUAK.HUAK. im so famous!=)

Reply: Whatever. =)

Cheryl: oh pls. My heart and eyes are only for Daryl tan. Mr teo and the others can f off far far away!

Reply: your heart only for daryl tan? Bullshit.

Cheryl: Hahaha. Ayah, along ah, Bali Bombing eh! LOL

Reply: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

acha: i noe who u refering too abt the guy u mention on ur wed post.one day they will suffer!pauto dia uh.aper lagi?

Reply: lek uh. blom ader evidence nk pauto die ah. haha

haKIM: don't u dare post about wad happened on 12th march hor!

Reply: I'll try my best not to. LOL

Cheryl: eh why? aisyah, post it!

Reply: I tell you when I see you. Super hilarious.

Okay I'm done!

Sarifah version of hip hip hooray!

Today seems to be alright. Nothing interesting happened. Just the usual laughs and scoldings. Wait! Something interesting did happen in the morning at the parade square.

Well,there was this new female teacher standing beside Mr Syafiq wearing a low-cut top. Abut low-cut la. And Mr Syafiq was much taller than her. So me and Cheryl made all the background sound effects about him looking into the teacher's cleavage. LOL. Damn hilarious. Furthermore his eyes and facial expressions suited the whole thing. HAHA.

And I heard that this week will be Mr Syafiq's last week. YAY! No one can tease me anymore! Hopefully its Daryl Tan's last week too so me and Wyelin can rest our ears from hearing too much of Daryl Tan. Hip hip hooray! Hip hip Hooray!(like ms sarifah)

And there was this group of boys disturbing us while we were doing our vocal warm-ups. I went out and they ran away but one boy pointed middle finger at me and so I said,: FUCK YOU BACK! And desmond thought they said it to me but actually I was the one that said it.

So he chiong out the dance studio and shouted:OI! But all run with their tails between their legs. One of the boys is none other than the guy with the eyeliner and hp larnyard around him. My darling 5a2 peeps should know who I'm talking about. He and his friends always smoke at the toilet outside my class. Pauto you one day k bastard bitch?

I really pity their parents. Raise them to be good kids,end up worst than mothafuckers. Hope they suffer!

Till here.

Birds of the same feather flock together

Today was abit hectic. My brain is not fully-functioning at the moment. I'm so tired.

People are born kind but they choose to be rude.

I shall not go into detail. It was a small matter but cannot negotiate. CONFLICT! WORLD WAR 3! Right acha?

But its okay for me now. I actually will just go on like it did not happen. But please,if you hate me,show it like you do rather than putting on a mask and being someone whom you are not. And that is exactly who you are now.

Whats unity if you do not work with others? I've never offended you before but you still snap at me. What have I done wrong? You even snap at her, Your own bestfriend. What is this? Have you lost respect? I let you do the things but just one question made you snap at me. Furthermore,the question was not harmful and I asked you nicely. At least I didnt complain or anything cos I know you have put alot of time and effort in it. I appreciated it okay. Dont take it that I'm ganging up with the others to bring you down,because I'm not. I just cant understand people like you.

And never say you dont care what others say. Cos deep down you actually know that you want to know what people are saying about you. I've said i dont care before,but its always not what it means. So yeah. I just hope you think about this. Unless you still want to be stubborn.

Qijun made my day!

Hello! Today seems to be alright. CD as usual learned nothing. And POA learned a new topic. Me,Qijun and Akbar could not stop laughing cos of the things that qijun said. Its very censored so shall not say it. But thanks qijun for making my day.

Then went to kfc with acha,wyelin and dyla. Then went home and I saw Jamie,Farid,Mach,Jup and Boi in the bus. I miss those boys man. They also took 5 with me. Had a very long and havoc chat in the bus since the bus was super empty.

After alighting,they all followed me back home cos wanted to meet my brother. And I got to see Fad. ARGGHH!! lol. Damn happy la. Then we talk and talk and talk until i forgot that I havent bathe. haha. And here I am now.

I'm feeling super sleepy now. Oh & today is like my forgetful day. I forgot to do SS homework, sign the camp form, do english essay correction, bring SS file,refill my water bottle and remind Fad about something. Whats wrong with my brain?!!!

And I cannot forget Cheryl's expression when she saw daryl tan this morning up close and personal. Her 'WHOOAH' was super high pitch. And loud! Hahaha. You make me laugh la babe.

Oh and I've created a new spelling for my name that is gonna be put on my class t-shirt: AYEESYAH. Cheryl,please dont anyhow change the pronunciation of my name like miss eee-zati okay. Or I'll start calling you what "your favourite teacher" calls you. You know who hor.

And to Acha,I found a new addictive song. Pahit akan manis akhirnya by Ukays. LOL. To me addictive only la. And dont care about the you-know-who that is jealous of you and you-know-who. Maybe she has never had a close friend before and takot tkde kwn in future so she stick to this one lor. Pretend she never existed before. Kalau da tak tahan,sound je. Jangan kasi muke kat lakhanat nie sume. ISH! Fierce nye aku. HAHA.

Till here. Takecare and see ya'll soon.

superhuman

Yesterday had Flag Day. Refer to Acha's blog on what happened when we went to Paya Lebar. It was an easy job I have to say. Then went to grandaddy house and headded home after that. Came home and slept. Yes I'm a pig. Happy Cheryl?

Then woke up,chatted with Acha and then went to town with Fad and Farhan. I was really uncomfortable. Ask me to find out. Saw a Ed Hardy hoodie. I WANT IT! Then me and Fad went shopping for shoes and Farhan bought perfume,cap and formal clothes.

Then me and Fad went to have supper at MacD's. Broke after shopping so no choice but to have supper there. Talked about really personal stuff. More personal than the ones that I always talk to some friends. And I wanted to break down at one point. PRESSURE!!

Headed home only at around 1am. There was clearly no public transport except for the taxis,but we were broke so called my brother to get us. And Fad said this after I called my brother:
Fad: Kan I da ckp naek motor i. U tknk jgk. tkyah nk susakn abg u.
(i already told you take my bike. you dont want. no need to disturb ur bro)
Ong: naek motor ngn u? baru last friday kene accident. u pikir i nk ke? giler la u nie.
(take the bike w/ u? just last friday u got into an accident. u tink i want? crazy ah u.)

He got into an accident last Friday at the exact same place where my brother got into an accident. Fad's was on Friday. Another biker on Saturday. My brother on Sunday. All at the exact same place. And the accident got worse and worse.

Bro dropped me off and then went chillaxing with Fad and the rest at some place. I stood under the block looking at the staircase and the lift. I dont know which one to take. I had an eerie experience at the stircase last yr and its still fresh in my mind and I really dont want to take it. Whereas for the lift,what if the door opens and 'something' is standing outside?

I got myself together, took the lift and once the door open on the second floor,I stepped out looking left and right and then walked quickly towards the door. Quickly unlocked the door cos I swear I felt something was behind me. It was not my mind playing tricks on me or when you're scared,you start to get agitated.

This time I swear something was walking behind me cos my neighbour has a row of plants so when something hits the leaves of her plants,you know someone is there. Furthermore it was super silent at that time,so the sound that was coming from the brushing of the leaves was so clear.

Once the door was unlocked,rushed into the house and shut the door without looking up. But I could see a shadow of someone or something standing outside my neighbour's house. Quickly locked the door and took a bathe and tried to sleep. But cannot. I was abit disturbed by the image of the shadow. I was somehow curious to just open the door and see what that thing was.

But I was afraid that thing would come into my house. So I listened to my mp3 at full blast and manage to fall asleep. Then suddenly there was this vibrating sensation on my bed. I was scared la. Then I found out my phone was vibrating. LOL.

Till here. Oh and today did nothing much. Just slept and cleaned my table. Haha.

morning rain please..

I'm lost right now. I'm tired right now. I'm sleepy right now. I need motivation right now. I've not been studying for any subjects for the past week. I'm not sure why. I'm starting to fall asleep in class but thank goodness I still can catch what is being taught.

Anyways,today's motivational talk..Well,I was abit motivated to charge forward and outbeat the mothafuckers and bring them down. But I expected the talk to be more inspiring. But at least I was motivated right.

Then had drama.I mixed my lines all over again. What the hell is wrong with me?!!

Everyday it has been raining in the evening or somewhere late afternoon. Why cant it rain in the morning? Apart from alot of people getting drenched,the morning breeze would be nice with the cold air. Morning rain! morning rain! morning rain! LOL.

On other news..

To my 11-years of bestie,I just hope you would listen to my advice cos trust me,you chose the wrong time to stray away. Whats so good about it anyway? Protection? Please.. only you can protect yourself cos when the others need to run away,they will leave you stranded. And finally..it might just end you up in jail. Think about it my friend.

And to Fad,thanks dude for telling my mom! Now I dont know what to say to her! I'll kill you after my o levels. LOL. takecare!

crush

I cant wait to get my hands on Wyelin's(soon to be mine) pencil box! It may look cheap but I like the simplicity. And also my new urban male bag or some other new tote bag! And the trip up the flyer and the dinner at pastamania and a new phone.

Unfortunately all these things need money and guess what? I've got none. I certainly would not touch the money in the bank as its strictly for education(hah!) and obviously future emergency use. So,I guess I have to start starving in school and not shop and be kind to my uncles and grandadyy so they would give me money. What a clever child I am!

Anyways,today I start to get this impression that someone is a pervert! 5a2 students should know who. Shall not say anymore just that I feel really uncomfortable around him.

Moving on.. Mr Teo made us change seats and also formation. He wanted us to mix around with the different races. Note to teo wee seng: its impossible given the class is so unattentive especially towards you.

After school went to hospital to visit brother. The size of his lips outbeats Angelina Jolie's! Hah! His friends and gf were there too. After some time,he said he wanted to smoke(!!),so we brought him down. There was this corner where all smokers smoke there. These people totally ignored the sign above their heads which says: The hospital is not a smoking area. You will be fined $1,200 if found guilty.

One doctor came out of the blue:
doctor: smoke faster. NEA is upstairs.
Brother: uh k.

WTH! How can a doctor possibly ask him to smoke faster?! I was shocked! And then his friends played F1 with my brother since he's on the wheelchair. Damn funny! I started to become sleepy so decided to go home. One of his friends wanted to send me but I dont trust him.

I only trust my brother with the bike and no one else. But now that he has got himself into such disaster,I trust no one and no bike! LOL. So he accompanied me all the way under my block. Sweet right? Haha!

So here I am still feeling sleepy. Well,shall go to sleep and dream that money grow on trees. Maybe I should go back to my old job and use that money to get what I want. But its so tiring! HMM..looks like it all comes down to savings. Till here

Some nurses need to be trained even for the slightest task

School was fine today. Except the fact that I have lost all my respect towards Faisal. He kicked Kemp's table purposely and did not apologise. He irritated Nisa when she was trying her best to change and do better. He was born to be an asshole I guess.

I salute Nisa for shouting at Faisal. But too bad that even did not trigger the guilty feeling. I cant express fully to anyone how I hate him so much now. JERK!

Anyways,after school went to hospital as brother got into a motorbike accident. I knew it would happen,just waiting for it to happen. Well,his lips were busted. They had to stitch it. His lips then became swollen and its almost the same size as his nose. LOL.

And there were also a few cuts on his leg. Nothing serious,just the lips. And I got scolded for something that I asked when I arrive. The first qn was,

aisyah: where's your bike?
brotha: you should be asking about me and not the bike. I'm more impt.
aisyah: the bike is equally impt okay! without it,I cant go places in a hurry. *laughs*. So,how are you AND the bike?

Then he just rolled his eyes. Found out that a van had hit him and he was thrown off his bike until he kena the windscreen of the van.
aisyah: pain anot?
brotha: no la. shiok like want to die like that.

Then blood from a cut on his lips started flowing down his chin,so I called a nurse to help him with the blood and the wounds since his lips are badly busted. She went back to a group of nurses and asked whether anyone can help with his lips,no one replied her. She and the other nurses still can look at my brother like one idiot. Then go back to doing their work like nothing happened.

I was pissed about that la! After like a few seconds later,I went to the nurse and say," excuse me,you're a nurse and I believe your job is to attend to the patients no matter how busy you are with your paperwork. What kind of nurse are you? What if there is someone dying or had hurt himself/herself,are you gonna just leave that person there? I cant believe that you're so stupid." There were like 7-8 nurse standing near my brother's bed doing some paperwork. Cant even one of them just attend to my brother for awhile? They know he needs help,they can still just look at him. STUPID SERVICE!

Then I went to the counter and asked one male nurse to help us and he kindly did and even help to clean all the blood that are dried. I cannot believe I had called a nurse stupid,but come on..if you're in the same situation,you would also be very angry.

Then there's a patient beside my brother. He wanted to get off from the bed cos he wanted to open his cupboard. He called onto one nurse but she just loook at him and walk away knowing he was struggling. When I got sick enough,I helped him. When he fell also no one attend to him. In the end me and my bro's gf had to help him up. I really am disappointed with the nurses. I mean,patients need your help and you just look at him like he is stoning.

Then went home and here I am. I'm so sleepy right now. So..gotta go catch some sleep before my cousin comes. Bye!