Its time to get down and dirty!

Plans to skip school with Aizat was bombed.
I woke up like 15mins earlier to dry and tie my hair.
-___-" I know.
At least I made an effort to wake up earlier than usual and go to school okay!

School wasnt that bad.
The human traffic jam at the gate was totally unnecessary.
Hakim was being extremely * today.
I wish I could shut him up but he couldnt stop making me laugh.

After school went for facial appt.
My treatments gonna be over soon but there's still more to be done.
She said I might want to get a smaller package to clear my face 100%
Unfortunately it costs like a thousand bucks over.

I told my mom not to go for it cos my family is currently on a tight budget.
Sis going to university in July and her income cant pay everything.
So parents have to chip in too.
Only if we didnt have to pay like $3000 over for damn NTUC insurance.

So I might have to get the products and apply it myself.
It cost about $200.
Saves alot!

And I like need money!
I'm trying to save like $10/15 per week.
I dont know what I'm saving for actually.
Maybe for a new phone.
But that can wait.
Guess I wont be going shopping for the next few months.

Till here.

May MJ rest in peace.
This may come a 'lil too late but I was busy going through his videos.
I cant help but think how much he had made an impact on my life over pop music.
Although I have to say I never really favoured his crotch-grabbing dance moves,he's still the BEST!
And like all his die-hard fans(Read:I'm not exactly die-hard),I sure want to know how he died.
But at the end of it all,I find that how he died is not that important.
Whats important is that his music still stays and is being played.
I love you MJ!

And also not to forget Farrah Fawcett.
My parents first ever Charlie's Angels star.
May she rest in peace too.

Alrightey,on a happier note....
School starts tomorrow and I cant wait!
Reason being I finally get to be busy again with schoolwork.
And I miss stitting with Wyelin and Cheryl and hear them talk about their Korean bands and boys. LOL
So today doing nothing much.
Just sitting on the couch,watching tv and the tv watching me.
Okay I'll say it.
I'm BORED! REALLY REALLY REALLY BORED!

Family's out to johore which I clearly dont want to join in case I have to go on LOA.
Oh well. At least I get to do whatever I want. Hee :)

Woke up with a huge headache!
And also the noise-pollution.
Some workers were chopping down branches.
At like 10am?!!!
Sick sia.
Totally spoiled my sleep.

Anyways,recently got headaches.
Its the kind that goes BOOM BOOM BOOM!
I thought it was because I stayed home so much that I got these aches like last yr.
But when I go out also have.
Sway.

Today went to Mustafa Centre to get my headphones.
Chose the Sennheiser model.
I thought it was going to be damn ex.
Checked and it was only 36 freaking buckeroos!
The one at challenger was like $100+/-
Furthermore,I've been looking for a Sennheiser and I finally got it!
So.....HAPPY!
And fyi,NEVER TAKE THE BUS NO.23 HOME!
The bus journey is like abt an hr.
I do enjoy long bus rides but when you have a time-bomb head,it sucks!

Oh! and I've checked out the phones that I'm gonna get.
Both Sony Ericsson.
Its my fave!
The phones are K850i and TM506.
If you have any feedback on the phone,do tag me.
I wanna know which is better.

Reply to tag:

Cheryl: LOL. TAGGED! Anw, i feel like gg shopping!!! I saw a sandle and bag at charles and keith, tempting!

AYEESYAH: Okay. We'll go when I have the money. Or you can pay first. LOL. I suppose this is the pre-birthday present?

Till here. Need to eat panadol!

Just some updates for the past few days.

Saturday,went to Seoul Garden at Bugis Junction.
Ate non-stop like at Han River.
Haiz..miss those times and the PRAWNS!

Sunday went for cycling at East Coast.
Now my butt still hurts because the seat was padding-less.

Yesterday went to school.
Late for facial appointment.
Head to cousin's house.
Then off to eat then pick up bro's gf.

Today went to school.
Navin was making alot of careless mistakes because............
I dont think I'm allowed to continue.
Navin,you know i know la hor.
LOL

I'm so tired..
I miss YOU!
I need to catch up on so many things.
I cant wait to meet up with someone.
Its been over 2 months plus since we've met.
And I'm going to Han River again!
YAYY!!

Till here.-I need to go make more female friends. I'm sick of guys!

Acha,this baby is cuter than your Dean! LOL

Last night went to Simpang Bedok with sis for dinner.
Woke up today with diarrhoea.
Could it be the cockles that we ate? HMM..

Started studying around 12:30am.
Then I couldnt focus so called Hakim and then Zeek called.
They've declared that they are attached together.
I FREAKING HATE HOMOS.
But I knew they were only joking.
Then played this game which cracked my sides.
Someone has to play the song and the rest have to guess the song title and vocalist/band.
When me and Zeek played the songs,the points went up to about 8 and above.
But when Hakim played the song,the highest was 3 I think altho he played quite a number of it.
Why you ask? The songs he played all only he listen to. LOL

In the end I didnt study.
Hung up around 2:20am.
Watched CSI since Zeek say its on teevee.
When the show ended then I study.
5am slept.
And I just woke up.
The time is now 1:15pm.
Meeting the dudes later and prolly Acha too for Zeek's "late lunch".
Its dinner already la deng!

Till here.

Today was very very boring.
Ordered McD since mom didnt cook.
The McD dude was some what charming.
And he was courteous.
Get over it aisyah!

Started to get ready to meet mom around 4.
Left the house.
Met her at Paya Lebar.
I couldnt take it anymore so I just had to let it all out.
What Cheryl said was right.
Both of us need to know each other's piece of mind.
So I said what I had to say.
I couldnt find a better place or time to say it.
It was a lil distracting but that's the only way to not see each other cry.
She said she pressure me 'cos she doesnt want me to be like my dad.
Dropped out at Sec 2.
Sure he got a stable income now but he had to get his way thru himself the hard way.
She apologised for what she's said all this while.
Then that was it.
I OWE YOU BABE!

Walked around to look for Hari Raya's cloth then send for tailoring.
I think we made like 10 revolutions around the same place and the same floor!
My brother was a picky person so we had to find the right colour and be approved by him!!
He's more demanding than me.
Finally we bought one.
The rest he will settle.

Anyways,Friday prolly going to granny hse in Johore with cousins!
YAY! I'm damn excited!
It's been ages since I've seen them.
Then after that its back to business!
Hopefully I get to go for an outing with the peeps before school starts.
I miss having fun with them and just laugh at their dirty jokes.
CHERYL,HAKIM,NAVIN,WYELIN,ZEEK! Make yourselves free okay!
Maybe we can go up the flyer for 10 bucks!
This time I'm gonna make sure I get to go out!!

And I cannot believe that my brother and sister say I have a weird taste for music!
'Cos one moment I will like those relaxing songs like blues and jazz.
The next moment I like those lovey-dovey songs
Then I'll like those songs that have teenage angst.
Then I move on to hardcore rock songs.
Then I move to chaotic songs like Britney's and PCD's songs.
And now,I like songs like Fire Burning from Sean Kingston and reggae.
Hmm..maybe I do have a weird taste for music.
Or it could be that I pretty much like any songs as long as it is not vulgar and dont burst my eardrums.
And yes,now I like Fire Burning by Sean Kingston.
Some people are shocked because I dont look like I listen to such songs.
HAHA!
Unfortunately,I dont have this song.
So if any of you kind soul have this song,please kindly send it to me.
Or you can download for me. hehe

Till here.

I had 12 hours of sleep! Slept at 2am and woke up at 2pm.

Currently,I'm stuck in this hell hole.
Ironically,its the same place where I seek refuge from external danger.
Mom is treating me like a jailbird.
I dont know what I've done to deserve this.
And not what to do to un-deserve this.

I couldnt sleep so I studied from 11.30pm to 2am.
91.3fm was my companion.
I made a book of words that can be used for my English.
And I realise that I can focus better once everyone is asleep.
And I need music to study.
Find it a lil too late to realise what I need to study but idc.
..........
So tell me,what am I to you?

Today was boring. Woke up around 11am and had to send grandparents back home. Met mom and went to buy pants. Haha.

Walked around and headed back around 3pm. Slept. Msg-ed Acha but then forgot to reply her text. Dumb!

Woke up and met Farid. Follow him go Expo for some thingy. Walked back home. It was tiring but nice. We shared alot. Home sweet home!

I realise that my posts are getting shorter and shorter. Wait till you see this wk's. No school therefore no outdoor activities. I cant go out cos I didnt study. So mom is punishing me.

Sometimes I feel like telling her that she's not good at making her child study. She ask me to study but she switches on the tv. She talks on the phone like the person on the other end is deaf. She makes me do this and that which can make me lose focus. She doesnt care how I study. As long as she sees me sitting there and looking at something productive,she'll assume that I'm studying. She doesnt even care what I study and how I plan my time table. Every once in a while she'll call me and ask me to help her with this and that. She doesnt allow me to go out. I go out also for the reason that I want to study somewhere quieter. FYI,there's a karaoke lounge under my block and the place is not sound-proof! She doesnt even help me to make me study. All she just say is study and assume that I will be 'study-activated'. So readers tell me,how am I suppose to carry on?

Till here. I'm 'study-activated'!

Woke up today and read the newspaper. The first thing I saw was Paris Hilton and C.Ronaldo on the front page.

Kept reading and looks like they hooked up. Not the least jealous or shocked. Since he has moved to Real Madrid,I couldnt care less about him. They were all over each other in the club that night.

To me,they dont suit each other. But I've always been curious how come all these years he never dated her?Hmmm..Well now he has!

And she keeps changing boyfriends all the time. Whats so attractive about her? I just dont get it. LOL. Hopefully he'll get Aids soon. HAHA. I'm so evil.

Anyways,today cousins will be coming over. Oh! and currently I'm attached to my sis iPod Touch. Played Sally's Spa and couldnt stop all night. Until I fell asleep and the battery ran out. Haha. Sorry my dear sister.

Till here. I'm so sleepy and I've got nothing to say.
To Furqaan,all the best! Haha.

I was spammed! Woohoo! Didnt think I was that popular. Hehe. I think that these spammers dont get the objective of this blog.

Well,firstly this happens to be my blog and its where my daily rants are being posted. Its like a diary you see. Therefore I'm pretty sure I can say whatever I want and about whoever I want.

Sure there are people I dont like. But I also realise that there are some people that dont like me. But I just take it as it is because I'm not here to please everyone or force them to like me.

Actually,I was kind of expecting it because of seeing other people's blog being spammed. There were numerous of them mind you. Maybe its better if I dont have a tagboard. I can say whatever I want and nobody can back says me.

Smart huh? LOL.

Anyways,hopefully I can go out on Tuesday with the peeps and have a hell of a time! I need to get out of the house like really badly. I'm getting headaches!

Maybe its because I sleep too much. Well have been catching Ghost Hunters on YouTube every night on my sis iPod Touch. So pretty much every night I steal her gadget and scare myself to death watching such videos.

Till here. Now spammers,what have you got to say to this post? MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

Initially wanted to go gym but in the end had stomach cramps. First day of period. Sial betol. So I headed home.

Got a msg from Aizat saying he was bored so invited him to slack at my house. We played PSP,stupid card games,made dumb jokes,made fun of people who dislike us(like as if we care)and ordered Canadian Pizza.

I'm very bored right now. I dont know what to do or where to go. Actually,I'm disappointed. Dont ask why or with whom.

Oh! And someone just proved even more that she is a LIAR,right kim? A huge one I tell you! She talks about religion to us but yet she doesnt practice it. Somemore that thing on her face that she just 'adjusted' is against the religion. WOW!

Honestly,you look like you turning into minahrep. Cannot imagine minahs with no boobs. HAHA! Its okay. You have always been ugly. So,that thing just makes you uglier. WOOHOO! haha crazy

(pause.-I need to laugh)

Okay so tmr will be another day spent at home. BORING! But dont ask me out,I very lazy. And I'm still eyeing the $38 jeans. MOMMY! I WANT THAT JEANS. PRETTY PLEASE!!

Okay I gtg. BYE!

I'm cancelling you out of my life. We may not be close but hell I'm damn sure what you're up to. Who gives a shit about your wannabe attitude. Life sucks because of people like you! You go around saying things about my friend and now you are saying I bribed you to do so. Isap arh aku bribe! Please.. Nobody would want to believe that shit of yours. Call me a bitch,whatever. I have every right and reason to be mad at you. You go around judging people and when you dont like them,you tell their friends the things that you know arent true. They've gotten to know the actual story behind your bullshits and they too are cancelling you out! I should have known better about your mthfck attitude. The next time I find out you going around with that shitass mouth of yours,YOU BETTER RUN!

Apologies for the vulgarities. I'm just damn pissed. Certain huma beings should not have been born on Earth.

Today was really................

Went to school and arrived late as usual. Surprisingly Wyelin came earlier than me,hakim and acha. Navin totally ditched school. Unexpected. As for Cheryl,dont know what to say about her. HAHA.

Mr Alvin didnt come so me,waheeda,abdillah and nabeel sat in Bio lab talking shit. Then Mr Nasir came in and talk like nothing related to Biology. Expected. Then went off. Thanks Hakim,Wyelin,Sharifah and Nattasa for waiting for me.

Went to Central to eat. Then rush off for facial appointment. I was 45mins late but I couldnt care less. Lay on the bed and went into a deep sleep a few mins later. Wake up around 2pm.

I waited like 1/2 an hr for the laser machine to start but it didnt work. That 1/2 an hr was killing me of boredom. So I sat and read the magazines. It can be tiring just lying there unable to move you know.

After that was done,headed home but went to Eastpoint along the way. Wanted to look for jeans. The one that I wanted was $38 after 20% discount. The material is soft and good. Told mommy and she said see at Dorothy Perkins. But I dont want! I want at that shop! The price range also almost the same,so might as well buy that one.

So now here I am feeling a lil sleepy. But I've slept enough just now. And I cannot believe someone booked me like 2 weeks in advance to go out with him! Usually its like a last minute thing. As in:"You wanna go out? Meet me in an hr. See you". HAHA

Oh and yesterday went for ghost hunting. Where? Cannot reveal. There was one part where the cupboard door open and close by itself. The door was rather heavy so to open itself is rather unbelievable and the closing was like with full force. Like someone had a rage and decided to slam the door real hard. Real stuff people!

There were more stuff happening. Ask me. I lazy to type here. You might not be able to understand what I'm trying to say also.

Yesterday was absurd. FUCK all rude drivers in the world!

Totally miss the long-awaited appointment with co.

Earlier today I planned what to blog on today but I totally forgot.

So currently stuck on the song Zombie by Cranberries. Very old song! THANKS FURQAAN! I irritated everyone by singing the chorus. The vocalist has an awesome voice man!

After school today went to BK at whitesands to try the seven incher burger. NOTHING

SPECIAL ABOUT IT! Its just the freaking length which is not that long. Approx. 16cm. Yes we measured it. LOL

Till here. -'Mr Alvin...MUTATION!'. LOL. only bio students know.

Yesterday went out with Hirouka clan for some birthday celebration for Hakim and Navin's advance. I met up with Hakim and Navin at 3pm. The rest went earlier but when I exited the mrt at Pasir Ris,the rest were only about to take the train. Haha!

So,met up with that two monkeys. They didnt know that there's a surprise for them. Haha. I think Hakim know. Its so hard to fool him!

Then reached Marina Bay and wanted to wait for Zeek so can go together. Unfortunately he was still in Tampines so we left him and just meet him at Marina Barrage. Went there and surprised them! Then camwhored. Pictures will tell you the rest of the story.

waiting for the Mrt and also adjusting our clothes :D

they surprised them from the back.

the damn candle would not light up....cos of the wind. DUH!

the dudes got their prezzies.

I love each and everyone of them for making my day! plus Zeek who was the photographer

Zeek with his 'DSLR' cam loaned from RP. lmao!

There's alot more group photos but lazy to upload. After that,walked all the way to Suntec since they dont want to take train. Yes we walked through the Marina construction. Wanted to die la! Walk for almost 40 mins.

on our way to Suntec. Both of us were dying for water. LOL!

some along-the-way photos

we ended up in Marina Square's LJS. We couldnt take it anymore. HAHA!

then went to McD cos they(pic)wanted to eat dessert and some wanted to puff away.

Then headed home. Here I am being attacked by a papparazzi sesat. LOL

Overall,I had an awesome day. Sorry I could not stay any longer to slack cos my mom is afraid I would encounter the same thing again. So yeah. My legs were sore man! Till here.

Today was horrible. I cried TWICE! Hey,you dont know what its like to takecare of two elderly who are very sick by yourself okay! So shut the hell up! My grandad was so picky and wanted to do this and that when he is suppose to sit and rest.

He totally tested my patience. In the end I gave up and just sat in front of him and cried. Before that he ate something and he started to cough badly. I thought he was choking and suffocating. I called mommy and cried on the phone asking her what I should do cos I was panicking.

When they finally slept,I felt peaceful! I wanted to call someone but there's nothing anyone could do so I just sat in front of my laptop and watched Ghost Hunters. Like finally there's some entertainment.

Then bla bla bla. Mom and bro came home. They took over from there and now here I am!

Then suddenly one of my friend text me. She's a lesbian btw. She asked me to call her and I felt this 'eww' feeling in me. Yes,I'm uncomfortable around homos. I'm not sure why but all I know is I cannot stand lesbians and gays. They disgust me.

Although this friend hasnt officially declared that she's a lesbian,there's been numerous times where she asked:"Syah,what would you do if I say that I like girls?" And I said:"I dont want to be friends with you anymore cos homos make me uncomfortable"

You see? People tend to say that some people are just born like that but I feel that you're born to be attracted to the opposite sex. It could be that you have too much male/female hormones in you and you cannot control it.

So right now..I'm avoiding her. Giving excuses to not be able to talk on the phone. Just text her is fine. And two days ago I asked her whether she wanted the lyss 20th anni tix cos I'm not going. She said:"huh....if you're not going then I dont want to go la."

It may seem like because I'm her friend,she dont want to turn up if she dont have any company,but I'm kind of getting some other feeling from that sentence. And yes,she's an ex-lysian. But I wont reveal her name cos she's done nothing wrong to me.

So,Cheryl,Wyelin and Angie..tell what to do?!! Somehow,only the 3 of you give me solid solutions. So help me! Should I ignore her? Should I distant myself? Should I call off the friendship? Should I tell her straight in the face that I dont like lesbians? TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!

And to Acha,the previous post was not about you. What made you think so? hmm..terase la kau nie. I've had many people backstab me in my life so I just had to let it out. I dont even know what wrong I've done to them. Haishh..

I need someone or something to push me to study.
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As I sat there thinking,I just couldnt help but think of what you are and how weak you can be. You rely so much on people to the point that I feel you're an attention-seeker and have no brains of your own. You share each and every problem that you face. Certain people that face problems dont realise that no matter how much advice given to you,the solution will still have to come from you. I dont know whether you really am seeking attention but one thing is for sure that you are weak and still self-conscious. I give my all when I'm helping you cos you're a negative thinker. But when I face a problem myself,all you can say is "cheer up!". Period. How can that phrase possibly turn that frown upside down? And you tend to lose hope and not have any motivation to do this and that. It takes alot of effort to motivate you to do one thing. Even that you dont really feel like doing. I given myself up on you. And when I have motivation to do something,I need an accompany and you said you are willing to accompany me. But now look! Where has it all gone? Its just one thing I ask you to do and you cant even do it! I'm not asking you to motivate me,just accompany. I dont even say my problems to you cos I know you're unreliable. And you're too a hypocrite. You backstabbed me because of some stupid reason and go to 'another'. When you getting closer to me,'another' hates me. And you say all the bad things about 'another'. Now I'm wondering if you had said bad things about me too to 'another'. Right now,it seems you can trust me. But I cant trust you. Who knows,you might backstab me again in the future and then all the negative things and secrets will leak out. Dont worry,I'll still be nice to you and not backstab you. Cos you might just cry and trouble other people by telling this to them and then be a useless freak to them still.
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Today was sooooooooooooooooooooo boring. Went for facial appointment and I was the only one there so it ended early and she did my face properly. Went home,bathe,ate,on the phone,slept. Its gonna be very boring tmr too cos I wont be going out and simply stuck at home. I need some form of entertainment. AND MONEY!

Grandaddy gonna return from hospital tmr. He had a minor heart attack but he's all okay now. The doctor asked me and mommy lots of questions when he was first admitted and we were unsure of the answers to the qn cos the last time he was hospitalised and when he was 60 years+++. And that was at Old Changi Hospital.

My grandaddy was a strong man so he had no health problems. But just early this year he has a slight dementia. He would get flashbacks from the old times where people could still own cows and buffaloes that sort of thing. Its quite funny actually when he gets these flashbacks cos he tend to say it out and ask us to call his late brother or ask us to takecare of his cows. And there was one moment where he ask me to put ointment on a fish and massage it! HAHA.

Till here.

oh one more thing,I MISS NIZHAM!

O level was manageable and also a disturbance. Some stupid idiotic freak shake her leg like she got fits! It was so distracting. Pretty much the people around me shakes their leg in a weird way. So I changed my sitting position then got another freak also distracting me.

Some 4E guy keep looking at me. When I look at him,he turn away or try to avoid eye-contact. And I'm sure he was looking at me. When got eye contact,he look at me like I'm a wall like that. I didnt poke his eyes good enough already.

After paper went to Whitesands with Angie to print photos then buy some stuff. THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING ME ANGIE!

Went home by taking bus 5 then cried in the bus. Not sure why and I'm not a sadist. Reach home and bathe. Then did pasting for presents. Tiring leh. 2 hours for one frame!

Then went to hospital. And here I am! Till here. Laughing my ass off over Cheryl's titanic re-enactment. LOL