Typical boring entry

School was fine today. Had a last minute POA test(again!). But thank god I manage to do it. And I did pass my previous POA test. Was one mark short from achieving full marks.

And I hate SS presentations. No matter how good and tip top the presentation will be, I still dont learn anything. I guess I need to keep on reading. And I'm so lazy to prepare for the presentation. URGH! Help me get out of this habit.

What I wanna do now is just lie down and sleep for the next 24 hours. I'm dead tired. I almost slept in Maths class,but I manage to stay awake. But SOMEONE slept throughout the 45 mins of impt points! Although I was open-eyed,I was brain dead. Only understand abit. And the test was kinda hard. No clue what I wrote also.

Mr Alvin didnt come so we did our own work. I was bored like ********! After school went home with Guigui and SB also took the same bus. Lol. But I dont care about him alrd,okay Gui? Then me and guigui talk about *goggles* and drama. After she alighted,I listened to music and slept in the bus despite the fact that I was like 3 stops away from alighting only.

Bus was full like *** due to Ngee Ann kids. Already take up so much space,some more dont want to let me pass. Stupid or what?!! Came home them rush back to school for Drama. I dont really like the Friday session. The reason is not so obvious. So dont make assumptions. Some should know why.

Now I'm tired,sleepy and more sleepy. Till here.

Happy days

Today was great! I dont know why but I feel good when I ran for PE today. Cheryl pang seh me after the first round. Although I didnt run much,I sweat like ... which is good i guess.

SS took place in comp lab. We did nothing much. Except tag people's blogs and some had spam mine. WTH! After SS on the way to MT class,I saw someone and just found out that he's not that good-looking. Look abit like Sufi(no offence ah Sufi!) but better. He only look good from the side. And I want his skin colour!

Can someone like get me the desired skin colour? I wanna look more chinese!Some say I look abit chinese,but some say I look totally Malay.How like that? I want chinese skin colour! Make me fair!!!!!! LOL.

Today's maths gave me a headache. I still cant get the subsets thingy. Understand abit only. I actually find a pattern between me and Cheryl. When I understand,she dont understand. When she understand,I dont understand. Sometimes worst! Both dont understand together. Hahaha. Lame.

Today also had a game in MT class. Ms Shahidah tested us on our vocabulary. We totally suck at it. Some more she tested us on the weird-weird ones. But at least it is related to the compo questions that she usually give us or can be used in our compo. But honestly,the words were weird!

And I'm happy for my drama members today. I need not get angry at them today. Most came on time. Those who cant come had given a reason earlier but there were some who purposely skipped drama. I dont wanna put it here. Whatever happens or is said in the Dance Studio shall remain in the Dance Studio. Rehearsals also went smooth. Desmond was not screaming at us. And they had abit improved their vocal power.

Got to go. Need to crack my brain on Subsets and body parts for Bio! Yay! tmr POA! Pray I pass my test.

Random

I'm stuck at home today. Dont know where to go. And there's like a ton of hmw to be done. Actually its just Maths and Malay. Sis going to Marina Barrage with great granddad later. Not sure wanna follow anot.

Maybe inviting some friends over to celebrate chinese new year together(????) and study together and maybe play some games and just slack like hell. I cant wait to go to school tmr. Gonna give someone something she prolly would like go gaga over. LOL.

And I'm tired of sitting around at home. I need something that can make me busy. I've been sleeping quite late. So tmr you all will see my soon-to-burst eyebags. ITS FREAKING HUGE!



I know this kinda late but just wanna share with you guys wad Zeek got me for my belated belated belated birthday. I like the color! Its a notebook with many many empty pages(haha!). I still dont know what to use it for. Hopefully will be put to good use. Till here.

Tuts my barreh

I'm kinda watching this really random and funny video. Its failed karaoke. Just read the lyrics in the video. So confident sia the singer. Especially towards the ending. HAHA.



The REAL lyrics:-Touch my body by Mariah Carey

I know that you've been waiting for it,I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick on YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag about this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my bidness like a Wendy interview
But this is private between you and I

chorus:
Touch my body
Put me on the floor,wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body,throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist,just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves,come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me like a tropical breeze
And float away with you in the Caribbean Sea

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick on YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag about this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my bidness like a Wendy interview
But this is private between you and I

(chorus)

Imma treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body

(chorus)

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...

bbq food.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL! Yesterday went to chinese granny house. My male cousin damn HOT sia! Lol. My family ate KFC since we cant eat what they eat. But I got a taste of abalone. I want more! Then received ang baos.

After which,went to Changi beach since dad's side was there. It was super boring. Some aunties and uncles of mine were telling stories to each other about some people. Cousins joined in too but I kinda walked away. I pretty much get nothing from all these things.

Walked back and forth down the beach with cousin and we shared everything. Then took some pictures. Then ate. Food was not that tasty.I dont really like barbecued food so didnt really eat much. Then we sang,played water bomb,took even more pictures. Then mommy and daddy went home around 12 something. But I stayed with bro.

Then play and play somemore. Told ghost stories and such. Then around 5 in the morn then go home. Till here.

departing for an adventure

Credits go to Cheryl for helping search for a new blogskin. I know its abit boring and plain. But I love it. The quote at the top gives me motivation to get myself together and charge forward and kill all obstacles in the way.

Honestly,I'm tired of crying. Crying leads you nowhere. I know I just started school but everything has been hard on me. I come home tired everyday and still have to do revisions. With this routine everyday for the rest of the year may kill some of you,but its for the best. So hang in there!

Anyways,Chinese New Year is this coming Monday! YAAAY! I cant tell you how excited I am. Ohh & daddy side of family will be having a barbeque thingy tonight and maybe tomorrow also. Not sure whether I wanna go. Maybe I should just go. Hanging out with your cousins might just keep your mind away from school and problems.

Although I dont really mix well with the malay side of the family(dad side),they're really fun and know how to have proper fun. And although all of them dont have a steady income, they are still happy like they have so much money. They dont dwell on their problems so much and try to find a way out. Thats the thing that makes me proud of them.

As for the chinese side of the family(mom side),I dont know them well but they are the type who is approachable and can mingle with. Very sociable I have to say.

Okay. So currently I'm into the song Right here(departed) by Brandy. Very catchy song and it kinda suits the mood I'm in now and what I've been going through the past few days. Enjoy!

what does the world want from me?!!

I'm feeling down now. I dont feel that I'm aisyah ong at all. I'm just empty inside. I try to search for me deep deep inside. But I've got nothing. I dont understand. What do my feelings need? I'm confused,tired,lost,crushed and losing hope on myself.

Is this what it feels like to be a girl whose preparing for her o levels,committing herself to drama even when she doesnt want to,try to pull the people together,confused of her own passion & future and studying her ass off everyday to obtain a promising future?

3 or so months without school has made me who I am now. Unprepared,scared and confused of the future. I did some reflections just now and I should just let go of the little/unimportant stuff. One of them is YOU(I'm sure some of you know who he is). I'm over-obsessive of you and that has made me lose touch of the reality. I blame myself. You're just a pretty boy.

Cried in drama today. I know what I'm doing is not good enough. Maybe what Jamie said is true- "you need to slowly pace yourself as you go along. you're rushing into things. being 100% committed and controlling their discipline all at one go is gonna kill you. you need to pace yourself and try to discipline them over the smaller things. the bigger things will take care of themselves. cheer up."

Let me tell all you future stage managers. Your job is gonna be tough and hard on you. I wanted things to go well on my first time as a stage manager,but only to realise that I need to have a strategy or else it will all fall apart. I had expected from myself too much only to realise that it all came crushing down at the end.

I'm even disappointed with the people knew that my best friend had past away months ago and didnt even try to tell me. You people had to tell me in the year where I have to give all my attention to my studies. First saddening thing was his death. Second saddening thing was that I was told months later. Third saddening thing was no one stopped him from those killers even when you knew about it. You people are murderers too.

So thats my post for today. I've got nothing more to say. I just wanna lie down,close my eyes and rest my mind and feelings.

life is just

I know I said that I would put up some pictures by the end of the week, but I've been busy-mostly sleeping and studying and laziness.

Anyways,when I'm free I put up okay? *smiles*

Yesterday watched YES MAN with Goo,Navin,Zeek and Kemp. IT WAS AWESOME! I loved it to bits. It was funny. Pretty much everyone in the cinema was laughing their asses off and no one cared whether they were laughing too loud. CATCH IT YEAH!

Okay,so now doing my homework and downloading songs and finding new songs. I had actually promised myself not to listen to Taufik Batisah's songs. Simply because when he was in S'pore Idol,I was head over heels over him. I was always lost in my own lala land and he kinda took my life over.

So I decided to stop listening to his songs, not watch him on tv,not going to his roadshows and also to the extent of walking away from a conversation that has him in it. It was that bad. But after listening to his new songs,I fell in love with his voice again! Just the voice. I have to say that he produces nice lyrics.

Anyways,been trying to look for his songs for weeks now till I just remembered that I have a crazy Taufik fan in the family. Which is my cousin. She has the newly released album months ago. What wasted effort. So will be getting the cd from her on Tuesday.

Till here. Cracking my brain now for Malay comprehension. And to Danial,CHEER UP BUDDY! Put everything behind you and make it a life experience that you dont ever want to go through again. I need the real you back!

i was forced.

THANK YOU CHERYL BONG FOR PRINTING THE SS

CONTENT PAGE FOR ME. I LOVE YOU TO BITS AND

PIECES. I CANT EXPRESS TO YOU HOW GLAD I AM

TO HAVE A FRIEND LIKE YOU. YOU HAVE HELPED

ME LESSEN THE BURDEN ON ME. idk whether the last sentence is correct or not. haha. happy now?

resolution crap.

Going ga-ga over James Morrison. Buy me this album,and I'll give you a kiss. HAHA

Thanks Zeek for the pressie. I actually took photos of it. Later I show it off k? LOL.

Went to Marina Barrage with zeek and kemp on sunday. Took alot of pics here and there. Pics will be up soon along with my this upcoming Saturday's outing.

People kept asking me what's my resolution for the year 2009. And I kept repeating the same thing: I dont believe in new year resolutions. I mean I do believe in resolutions but it doesnt have to be just when the new year comes. You can change whenever you want. It can be at the end of the year,in the middle of the year,or even now.

And while I am talking about changes,a kind friend had actually wrote a few things about me that had changed for good since 2008.
1. I dont lose my temper easily.
2. I find people's laughter contagious.
3. I dont care about the negative shit thrown to me.
4. I hate complains and gossips.
5. I hate people that talk bad about others.
6. I cannot stand noises when studying-tv volume,chattering & even music
7. I'm crazy over cameras. My Fujifilm dlsr had an internal lcd crack so I bought a new cam while waiting for the Fujifilm to finish repair.(!!!)
8. I try to have more female friends than male friends.
9. I'm not interested in the drama club in school anymore.
10. I find SYF a dread.
11. I try to keep my spine straight cos I've been sitting hunched.
12. I love the people who love me.
13. I just keep my mouth shut when I'm angry/pissed so as not to say things that can hurt someone.
14. I dont want to rekindle the friendships that were lost.
15. I have cravings. -especially over fast-food and seafood.
16. I try to get even closer to friends that I have not been close to all this while.

So that was it. To Farhan,thank you for knowing me and understanding me well for the past 10 years(going on 11). I didnt realise it myself. Let's do our O levels together! I'll be behind you all the way dude! Dont mess this one year up okay? You hear me?! HAHA.

School shit.

POA has been pleasant again after a year of suffering by Khoo. Sat with Qi Jun and its kinda fun. He would talk crap and I would talk crap with him. Then we would laugh like all of a sudden and get scolded.

He's actually smart but just lazy. And he did his English homework! *claps* He said he slept quite late to finish it. But in the end,we are given till next week to finish it. LOL.

Had Drama just now. I took the role of a mother. The daughter was not good with words. I mean the person acting out the character. I want to scold also dont know how. And she kept changing her lines,so how am I suppose to scold her on the spot when I dont even know what to say!

She also like to give me one-liners. SO F*CKING FED-UP! How to act and put up a good show like that?!! I wanted to explode but I had to remain calm. If I dont know what to say tmr,I'll pretty much ruin the whole show. 4 years and 10 days of practice gone to waste.

Worst still,the sec 2's are not taking on big roles! Is either they take the small roles with little lines or just an extra. How drama not close down like that? Haiish.. Maybe we should train them on their confidence. Like making them talk in front of a crowd alone. Maybe that would help. HAIYO! So stress.

Furthermore tmr is the CCA Carnival. ON A SATURDAY?!! All thanks to Mr Han. Why cant they just do it on a Friday?! So troublesome. But after that meeting zeek to go fort canning! In the mood to take pics. LOL.

Till here. To Hirouka clan,not sure whether can make it to the movie marathon. I have two compositions,some cover pages to do and an upcoming test. But thanks for asking Ally. See ya'll soon!

Strangled for flunking POA.

Today has been a great day for me. Mdm Norsiah came back! yayy!! The first question thrown at me was how much I got for POA. I paused and said 4. And the next thing I knew,she was already stranggling my neck. Haha. I under-achieved badly. She targeted for me to get a 2 but instead I got two grades lower. NOT MY FAULT!

Then Mdm Halimah and Mdm Norsiah had this conversation. They were standing behind me so I could hear everything.

Norsiah: You know my Damai students did good for POA. Before I came in,three-quarter of the class failed badly. But for their N-levels,out of 16..only 3 fail. Unbelievable you know. I was really shocked man.
Halimah: Of course la. You are a good teacher what.
Norsiah: No la. Its their hardwork. I just guide them.
Halimah: Some times we teachers need to also take credit for the student's success. Teachers also play a part what. Right Aisyah?
Aisyah: I dont know,I dont know. (I wanted to say not true)
Halimah: Nevermind. Typical of loyang students to say that.
*Halimah slaps aisyah on shoulder with file and both teacher laughed.*
*waiting for command during flag raising*
Norsiah: Eh,see that girl her skirt. The chinese girl wearing specs.
Halimah: I'll come for her later.
*senang diri command,Halimah goes to the girl and warned her about her skirt.*

LOLLLLL...I find the whole thingy very funny. Especially when Mdm Halimah quickly walked over to the girl. Haha. Some more Mdm Norsiah can still tell Mdm Halimah during flag-raising. Hais..TEACHERS..

And this is the first time in after 2 years,the whole class actually paid attention during Physics lesson. Or at least everyone was quiet. Some were sleeping but at least they quiet mah.. And Mdm Norsiah is back to teach my class! KHOO SZE RU.. you can go and die!

Honestly,I almost failed my POA cos the way she teaches is very complicating. She doesnt even give easy examples. We are confuse and ask her to explain,then she'll makes us even more confused. She should just stick to teaching Maths. She's superb at that.

Anyways, I got news that CCA Carnival will be on a Saturday. Haiz.. so troublesome. Why cant they do it on Friday like the past 20 years or so. I dont even think people would come. Just like what happened for the Open House. Oh well.. at least I wont be stuck at home! Till here.

School term

First day of school was demanding. It has always been. Teachers wanting us to buy this,that and everything else that they think its important to them but not to us.

I thought I would be getting the same form teacher but HELL NO! I got Mr Teo. The d&t teacher. He was so......i dont know what to describe him. But thank god I have Mdm Halimah as my co-form. At least we all get along with her very well.

My class now consists of 35 people. 7 gone with the wind. Lessons will resume on Monday. And I got a pathetic class! 4 air-cons not in working condition. HAIYO! The funny thing is that the class window is opposite Navin's window! LOL.

Till here.

Random!

First up,

Happy new year to everyone!!!

2009 has finally arrived and I cant wait to venture out into the year and see what surprises awaits me. LOL.

TJ and I didnt go for countdown this time. We just lost someone dear so we are not yet able to move on. So we just sat at home and watched the countdown on telly. I was bored to death! I mean the performance totally sucked!

They had the hosts putting on skimpy and bared clothes! I mean I totally understand that it should be something attractive,but the way they did it,it was so sluttish! And the songs that they sang,COME ON!,got nothing to do with celebrating the new year!

Like for example when Hady sang 'The man who cant be moved',whats that all about?!! So what if you cant move? We're celebrating the new year so stop singing that song!!!

Anyways,after the countdown thingy, a friend wanted to go to Macs so he rang me up. I thought he was hungry at like 1am but he was just craving for Macs. And with no form of transport,we walked all the way to Macs which was not that far. About 10-15 mins walk.

We had out supper then walked back home and I had a chat with cousins. They too didnt enjoy the performance and was bored.

On other news, I cant wait to go to school tmr!! Hahahaha. 3 months of no education(haha!!) is too much. LOL.. Besides,I want to go to school for my drama and see the new sec 1's! And hopefully I dont get the air-con class which is in the F block. Its kinda stuffy and dusty and far away from the science lab,computer lab,office,staff room and canteen.

Till here.