Its all coming back to me now

I still remember what you did last summer. Period.

As I did my SS essay,tears started to form. I didnt know why. But these few days,my tears can just form and flow anytime. I'm not sure wad made me do so,but it did. Did I lose something? Did I abandoned someone? Or am I about to?

These qns couldnt be answered by anyone. Not even myself. Is it because I'm suffering from stress that I dont realise it? Is it because I have been so happy the past few months that its time for the negative feelings to release itself?

One friend just indirectly crawled back to me after being left. Should I accept? Should I behave like nothing happened between us? Should I fake everything and return the negative favour? So many qns in my mind,but none can be answered...

And again,tears are flowing now.

Only he who understands me.

These few days just not 100% myself.
Navin! Go study with me!
Unfortunately,when I study outside,can only study with him.
Whats so special about you ah? LOL.
1st Germany meeting was like ....
Shall not elaborate.
Gtg.

CLUEless

Initially in no mood to go to school but just drag myself since I'm desperately in need of knowledge. I couldnt concentrate in English. Do you know the feeling when you are trying so hard to focus and you just cant? Cos everyone else is blabbering away? Thats the reason,partly. If only the class and the TEACHER would just shut up for once. If only..

SS was another test again. Just did my best and done. Physics was fun. And I was all better. More cheerful. Had fun doing the experiment and going so frustrated over the metal ball that would not oscillate from left to right but instead made rounds.

Recess was talking about a 'frustration'. CD was never ending crap. POA was a struggle. I thought I had everything at my fingertips. I was god damn wrong! Now I gotta mug over my notes.

And Faisal took a picture of himself using my phone and put it as wallpaper. Pervert face! PEACE! haha. After school,someone made me u-turn and wait for her under the scorching sun. Thanks ah!

My face is not improving much. Oily skin has gone(except a small portion of my nose),pores are getting smaller. Scars are gone but very little. Apart from that,I still have pimples coming out. They are small but many.

There was once,I woke up in the morning and looked in the mirror. I was shocked to see like 5-6 tiny pimples ALL IN ONE AREA of my forehead. Gives me the goosebumps. Just feels like I got some popping disease.

So mommy will follow me for this sunday's appointment and ask why not much improvement and about the popping pimples. Hope it gets better soon. Till here.

i'm only 17(to be)

Supposedly today was suppose to sit at home and study. But instead I went out.

Went to dont know where at geylang with uncle and his daughter. Went around searching for malay dictionary. Finally found one. Then went to Seoul Garden at TM to take uncle's discount card.

He stumbled upon his friend. And his friend asked whether I'm his new wife? LIKE WTF! He may only be 24 and divorced,but come on! I'm so much younger la!! Not even legal to get married.

Then shopped here and there. Bought for his daughter clothes. Then went home.

So tired and hungry. And I've still havent fulfill my cravings! STEAK! Haha. till here.

yawns

Today,went out with acha and came back home. Guys paitao us. Extremely tired. I wore the wrong shoe for alot of walking today. Finally,went to Tampines 1. I personally love the Disney shop. It has so many cute things!

I just feel like buying all of it! Came back and bathed. Super hot!

Thats pretty much what I did today. Boring I know. But the time spent was WONDERFUL! Teehee. BYE!

acha just turned ah lian yesterday

Well,I'm gonna say what I've been saying for the past 5 years in loyang about exams-I wrote shitty stuff.

Malay almost killed me. The formal letter was about a service that an agency had promised but did not fulfill it. What exactly am I suppose to write? Obviously lame answers. I read that qn and all that I wanted to write was-YOUR SERVICE SUCKED YOU LIAR! IMPROVE DAMMIT! Honestly..

Then the compo did the qn on a responsibility that a friend had to shoulder and you have to give a description. If you didnt know,I'm terrible in descriptive essays. So I said about his father left him and he was head of the family and the only one that can work. He grew up to be a uni lecturer. And thank God and Izzati that I had a dictionary with me! I swear I had trouble thinking of useful words. Like my mind totally went blank.

Then it was English paper. The paper was not that tough. Just that I've lost touch in writing quality essays(chey!!). LOL. The letter I chose NUS and the compo I did on 'Regret'. I used an idea that had been used for a different topic during English on Wednesday-Carter was successful in his business but the feeling was not 100% there as his wife was not there to share the joy with. She died somewhere along the story. She just happen to faint and die(i know its stupid!)! Then he regretted neglecting his wife. TAH-DAH! End of story!

Then went for facial. It was not the best one I've ever had. It was a different person and she kinda scrubbed my face too hard like she's scraping something off. Went home with a super red face.

And finally I get to eat! My stomach was grumbling from 12pm to 5pm! Oh! And prolly tmr I'll be getting a new phone. Being the cheapskate my mom is and me unable to wait for a gd phone to be on sale,I decided to just take any $0 phone. Its sony ericsson w910i I think. Oh well.

Till here.

wandering which idiot passed me the disease!

Second post for today. I havent jump off any building yet. Went for brotha chalet just now to help him carry the stuff and prepare the food. I'm such a goodie sister. *wink wink*

Then waited for family and bro friends to come. Mom had prepared every single dish and provided the food supplies. So kind of her. Went to sleep for awhile. Woke up when I was freezing. Its not the fan,aircon or wind. It was my body temperature.

I was barefoot. Stepped on the chalet floor and it felt like I was stepping on an ice cube! Checked my body temperature(yes,I had a thermometer with me) and it was 39.4 degrees! Wth! This totally made me think of the time that I feel sick during the SARS thing. My tempreature then was 40+ but told mom that it was only 38 cos I was so afraid to go to hospital and die there!

LATER NOBODY WANT TO BATHE AND WRAP MY DEAD BODY! (inside joke)

Then Fad passed me panadol! I hate panadol! Especially those pill kind. He made me eat two! As you all know,I'm special. I cannot swallow panadols. Although people say just swallow,I still cannot!

So I slowly bite half of the panadol,chew(!!!) then swallow with gallons of water. I had to do it four times! And the bitterness is still lingering in my mouth. Wanted to wait for family come but cannot take it. Must go home!

Went home and bathe. It felt like north pole inside the toilet!!

And I told mommy this,since she say I must eat an apple a day: An apple a day made me sick today!

She still can ask me eat apple! wth! haha. I'm done. bye!

what something called 'life' has done to me

2008
I vow to myself not to ever procrastinate anymore. Its about time I start to be serious.

2009
Exams are starting this Friday and I'm only relying on what I've done in school!I clearly am unprepared for the Mid years. And what am I doing still sitting in front of the computer? urgh!! START REVISING AISYAH!

In other news..

I'm sleepy.
I need motivation.
SYF results are killing me.
Dance and Band got Silver.
Congratulations.
I hope Drama gets at least Silver too.
I have tons of work to do!
I miss Farhan.
I should not underestimate people.
I'm going crazy.
Gonna go jump off a building now. BYE!

cat and bitchfights are to be avoided by me

Today was my happy day! I was so happy that it rained in the morning. My prayers were finally answered. I just love morning rains for no apparent reason. School was fine. Maths was totally silent and I had trouble doing inverse and direct proportion. It twirls my brain.

The rest of the day was fine. Supposedly have to finish informal letter by today. But it was unbelievable to be able to finish it in like 20mins? So gonna do it later. Assembly was awesome. Except the part where the Guitar Club performed. Put me to sleep!

Then went home with Angie. This is like the first time I'm using Angie for Guiling. Anyways. I'm dead tired. Now,my sleep is going off the charts! Come back from school only want to sleep. If its like 1-2 hours nvm. But its like 3-4 hours! Then at night,cannot sleep. Haiss..

Okie doks. I want to head to bed. My eyes so droopy already. And I'm like craving for steak! LOL. Long time already never eat it. Who wants to go eat steak with me? Just give me a call! BYE!

aches

Went for laser at 12pm. Sis and Jessie pick me up to go East Coast for cycling. Reached and ate at Mac. Starving. Then rent bicycle. Saw brother and his friend. So joined them. We cycled from one end to the other. DAMN TIRING! My butt hurts and so do my thighs!

Then went to Burger King for drink and chillax. Sis and Jessie went off first since my sis sending Jess home. So,I 'tompang' bro friend's car.

Bro: eh,I need a job sia. I'm broke.
Me: Then go and find one la.
Bro: Find alrd. All like never come back to me.
Me: What kinda job you want?
Bro: Anything. As long as dont sell backside can alrd. *smiles*

LOL. Cannot stop laughing at that sentence. Till here. I need to do some last minute homework(if any),eat,then go sleep. BYE!

a new move

Time check: 11:12pm.

I was planning to fall asleep after my bath just now,but my eyes just cant seem to shut. There's been alot on my mind lately. Things that dont seem to really matter. Not sure why.

Whole day was spent at home. Mom and Sis went to TampinesOne. Typical Singaporeans. Luckily didnt go. There was like a huge crowd and you can barely see the shops. Besides,I was taking my afternoon nap.

Today's weather is not enjoyable at all. The air is very dry. Turned on fan also no use. Still very sticky. Well,watched 'Half Nelson' just now. It was an interesting movie but just that its kinda slow.

Switched it off,bathed and headed to bed. Turned on my mp4 for some music to put me to sleep. Unfortunately,I just cannot stop thinking.

Tomorrow will be spent going for facial appointment and cycling with sister. Not looking forward to it,just see how it goes. Whether I got the mood to cycle with the current weather. Did not talk to Farhan today. I miss you..

I guess I'll end here. Gonna let the soul music put me to sleep and drive me through never-ending dreams. Sleep tight you all!

Time check: 11:22pm

THE WORLD NEEDS A CHANGE. FOR STARTERS,DO SOMETIHNG ABOUT THE OZONE!

Seriously,someone needs to show that girl the path to decency! I dont want to mention names because she might just read this and go against me even more. But I just want to say that what someone said is true: When you grow up and working,you have to accept the people around you whether you like it or not. Maybe that should be said in your face. I dont give a damn about you not liking me. I'm not even bothered about it. But you have caused 'YOUR BESTFRIEND' the pain. Some friend you are,huh? Cheryl thought I was going to be all pissed after reading the msgs time and time again. Surprisingly,I wasnt. I took it as something that I should improve on. I make noise for the right reasons. You just kept quiet cos you're just too dumb to give an answer. And stop shooting the hatred-ness to your friend. Spare him for once. But then again,you're inhumane. So why should I bother saying it. You only have feelings for yourself and have never put yourself in others shoes. You expect everyone to understand. And calling your own bestfriend names that hurt? Again(!!),some friend you are! Its no wonder that the person you call your bestfriend,turn to me to vent his anger. I know what it feels like cos you yourself have done it to me. You just shoot things at people and then forget that sick act you just did hurt them. And I still remember the msg that you send to him about you being disrespectful. I'm glad you realise your mistake(s) but the sentence after that...? Hmm..You might as well not apologise. You hate people for the wrong reasons. I used to hate you for the wrong reasons too. But I've woken up. I know I was being unfair. So if you hate me now,I've got nothing to say and nothing against you. You bring no joy to my life. So I just cancel you out. Like the other LIAR girl,you're also just a ......... Have a nice life suffering and always hoping the people that you hate to be out of your life. Trust me,the more you hope,the more they will keep coming till you learn to appreciate them. See you around! :))

Bet some of you didnt read till the end. HAHA! Today was fun i guess. Except that I was quiet. According to Cheryl. Didnt go canteen for recess. Taught Cheryl graphs. I'm so kind! LOL. Was trying to survive Bio lesson.

When I wanted to go home today,the ez-link card for sec 4's and 5's were not ready. LIKE WTF! They say come back at around 2.30pm! Hello! What are we going to do in school until 2.30pm? There was like one huge crowd outside the office. Some were cursing the school. A few guys took the loyang pe shirt and burned it. LOL.

So me and guigui waited then I finally got my ez-link at around 1pm. Then went for facial appointment. Was tired and hungry. Slept while the person did my face. RELAXING SIA! Somemore I was the only one there. Haha. PEACE FINALLY.

Then rushed to meet Fad.Then went to Eastpoint to buy groceries. Reached home then suddenly got craving for Western food at Banquet. HAHA. Nvm,can go tmr or Sunday. The weather sucks today. Was sweating and I'm so sticky. Bathe twice also not enough!

Till here. BYE!

I love my life for now

To my lovely cousin,Shikin(picture above),HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY BABE! I know your birthday was yesterday,but I didnt blog yesterday,so today I dedicate k. LOL. May you have a blessed year and long-lasting relationship with SOPTO(suro die tukar nickname pls,haha),stay strong facing challenges(especially kat rumah) and belajar btol2! Show nenek that you can do it! GO GIRL! and one more thing,I miss you! *wide grins*

Today seems to be fine. After school went to Maths tutorial. I've finally figure out graphs. It was damn easy! Then met up with Izzati for English Compre. THANK YOU for the help. But I still need practice. Then went home. Bathed and here I am!

Some @#$%^&$!! girl pauto to Mdm Halimah saying that I didnt come school yesterday because I wanted to catch up on my sleep. To that girl,THANKS UH! Next time,I pauto you back. You just wait and see.

Okay I gtg. Wanna watch Wild Hogs then go study. AND I WILL! haha. Bye!

just my emotionally boring life

This entry gonna be really boring and emotional. Read at your own risk.

Today was Drama's SYF competition. I have been looking forward to this day months ago. I was hoping to minus the fights,gossips and some other bullshit that Drama had done to me and that I had to go through.

Months ago,I just couldnt wait to be free of the rehearsals and tired-ness of the acting. I couldnt wait to leave(with or without a word) and get my life back on track. I went berserk just getting everyone together til to the point where I have lost my passion for acting and Drama.

The commintment is still there,no worries. The critical point is losing the passion. The feeling of acting. I always loved acting. It let me escapes into a different world or person.

I still went on with my job as a stage manager and an actor,most people know about whats going on in my life. But one thing that they dont know,is that I have no more passion. Sure I do mention it to some,but they take it as just no more.

Moving on to today..

I was happy that this day has arrived. Everything's still the same except that they know how to behave and pick up instructions quickly. Acting was good. We did our best. I'm proud of them.

All of a sudden,I feel like turning back time and cherishing the moments I had with them. I start to get the feeling that I've lost something close to my heart that I know I should never let go.

I start to feel EMPTY literally. It feels like I've lost something and it cannot be replaced. And what is that? The moments I had with Drama. As the lights dim and the curtains close,I start to get flashbacks on the rehearsals and gossips that I've heard about me. Then I look around at the faces of my fellow actors,I'll miss them.

Only then I started to feel the passion come alive again. But its too damn late. Only then I started to feel motivated. But its all pointless now.

Took the bus back to school and on the way,tears started to form. I had to hold it back. I'm not sure why but I'm not gonna cry in front of them. Told An and he said that its about time I get those tears out since I've held back one too many tears ever since the actual rehearsals started.

And guess what? I'm crying right now......

I guess I should stop here. I cant go on anymore. I need a break to get myself together. To an(farhan),thanks for the shoulder. Sorry I wet your shirt. HAHA. I love you bro. I really appreciate it.

the nervous breakdown

Baby,I'll bring you out again someday okay? Miss you. Muacks!

Today was alright. Every lesson was productive. Like finally,no more naggings. I managed to not sleep in POA. So did my work and started singing 'When I grow up' by Pussycat Dolls.

I couldnt stop smiling and laughing to myself thinking of all the Pussycat Dolls dance moves that Hakim use to do. Funny la that guy. Then had drama rehearsal. Before that,I was talking to Navin,Ivanna and the Aussie girl.

She seems to be ignoring whatever that I have to say. Even if she answers my question,she would look at Navin and Navin only. Is he that good-looking til you have to look at him only? LMAO. My 5a2s,better shut your bloody mouth about this okay? Or I'll twist your neck,literally.

After school went to McD with Izzati. Finally relieved my craving. Now I want McFlurry Mud Pie. URGH! Then went for Drama rehearsal. Purposely arrive abit late cos lazy to carry the set all the way to the hall. Its freaking heavy mind you!

Sweat like ****. Then went home.

To these people:

Danial

Izzati

Zeek

Aisyah M.

Bhavani

Goo

Farhan

Fad

Navin

Akbar

Amali

Anesa

TJ CLAN!

Cousins

and a few others whose names I have not mentioned,forgive me.

THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT AND GOOD LUCKS! I KNOW YOU'RE ALL BEHIND ME ALL THE WAY AND FOR THAT,I LOVE YOU ALL!

Btw,the camera image at the top is very random. I just miss going out with that camera ever since my sister self-declared that it now belongs to her and her only after I got a new one. Well,its still mine. HAHA.

Anyways,I gotta slip in bed early. Tmr's a big day for me! Gotta be in school by 6am. Thanusha ditched me but luckily bro offered to send me to school. Thanks yeah! Till here. BYE!

Pray hard that LOYANG DRAMA CLUB GETS AT LEAST A SILVER! THANK YOU ALL! miss me.

Life as it is

Went for Drama in the morning to start ruining my hair. LITERALLY! Luckily brought shampoo. All of you must thank me okay! Then rushed to Eunos for my facial appointment. Thanks sis for putting my life(and Farhan's) in danger!

She dashed past a few red lights just so that I would be punctual for my appointment or else I would have to wait. The stupid person that did my face had applied mask and left it on my face for like an hour plus!

An hour later,she had to scrape the mask off. OH THE PAIN! Pity Farhan. Had to wait for like 2 hours plus for me to finish. But he was so engrossed with his PSP. Then went to Tampines to check out the new shopping mall called Tampines One. Unfortunately,we couldnt move from the MRT to the traffic light. There was a giganormous crowd. Furthermore,it was raining cats and dogs.

So,we made a U-turn and took the train to Pasir Ris and went to Popular to look for the malay dictionary. It costs like 48 bucks! And I only had like 30 bucks. So we decided to go buy sushi and look for the freaking hair spray that this woman ask me to buy. Everyone on drama has to get one for themselves. ONE PERSON EACH JUST FOR A STUPID ONE-TIME PERFORMANCE. What a waste of money.

Might as well just share like 2-3 people one hair spray. STUPID! Then went home and hit the bed straight away and woke up around 8pm. So tired. I should not be spending my morning in school. It should be spent at home catching up with my sleep.

I know I've been saying this but I just need to reinforce it to myself again. I cant wait for this coming Tuesday's SYF and its also the day where I'm officially out of drama!!! Somebody! Pinch me!!

Okay,gotta get back to sudying. Currently at Terminal 1's Popeyes with Cheryl and Hakim. Thanks kimp for lending the lappy to me! Till here.

Kepada seseorang yg msg aku tgh maki2 semalam(haha!),relax k. Maybe die nga mens ke. I'm sure die tak mean it. Die mmg da biaser pe mcm tu kat certain people. Just let it go okay? Take it as satu ujian dari Allah. K? LOL. mcm phm sak aku. And thanks for the song 'janji pada mu'. Aku janji pada kau yang aku kan sentiasa be there for you! Takecare.

Bestest Thursday ever!

The title says it all.

I had a fun time in History,PE,(neither maths nor ss) and MT. Well,in History we learnt about some Cuban guy that did something to help the poor and turn Cuba into a Communist country. Lazy to go into details.

As for PE,we played floorball. We played from parade sq then they kinda dragged the ball all the way into the canteen(wanted bookshop!),then drag some more to the science block,carpark,office,foyer,art room and back to parade square. I had a fun time playing. Most of it was laughing.

Maths was confusing. Damn you vectors! SS had another nagging. Lazy to go into details.

Drama was fun,finally! Me,Thanusha and Hakim had reserved the foundation first before everybody else sees it and its passed around and will only come back to you 10 minutes later. For the first time,I had fun doing the make-up. Was almost done in an hour. Yes,ONE HOUR. It was tough work looking like an animal okay!

Had practices for setting up the set on stage. We took 1 min and 20 secs. YAY! It was not easy. We were given 5 mins but we want to do it quickly so that other stuff can be done. The sets were huge so it was abit of a trouble with the curtains in the way.

As you all know,the hall is super warm and the fans were useless. So,all of us sweat in our costumes. Its not gonna be washed. And we have to wear it on Tuesday. WOW! Smelly costumes. No choice.

Went home after that. And guess what? I have to go back to school tmr! How great is that? On a Good Friday where students are not suppose to be in school! ARGH! Well,the meeting is from 9am to 11am.

I might have to leave 15 mins earlier for my facial appointment at 12pm. Farhan accompanying me for that. Thanks dude! I love you(since 11 years ago!). Then gonna look for a malay dictionary. I need one badly! I'm losing the malay touch. (???)

Till here. Cant wait for SYF cos thats the day where I declare myself OUT OF DRAMA! *hakim's evil laugh*

And I cannot believe that I've missed 4 of Reverandom's outings. urgh!
1.Formal wear outing
2.Movie
3.Today's town outing
4.TOMORROW'S Pulau Ubin outing!!!

Why must I be so busy?!!! I miss them la! I want go cycling at pulau ubin like last time! I want! I want! I want! AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Please dont forget about me hor REVERANDOM. I LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS AND PIECES. MUACKS! teehee.

breaking down soon

Had a long chat with Anesa over the phone yesterday. I was being lame,blur,random and sick in the head. Thats what I am for the past few weeks till now. She gave me a long silence and said,"You're at your wits end."

Totally agreed! I've been so pressured with SYF and school. I'm starting to get less sleep and I always start to feel sleepy at around 8pm. That is when I start to do my homeworks and revisions.

And I used to wake up feeling fresh and ready to go to school in the morning. Now,waking up is like a heavy chore for me. All I want now is sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep!!! URGH! I NEED A BREAK!!

Anyways,today went for the Germany interview. I've a feeling that I'm not going to be chosen. Simply because my attitude has changed abit for the worse. My teachers should know better. Well,it was no harm giving it a shot.

Well,i guess this post will have to end here. I'm suppose to watch a video for History tomorrow. Reminders for homeworks are adding to everything!

my voice

I think its time for teachers to cut down on the nagging and get back to what they first came to class for: TEACH. Its true that we students do get abit out of hand and just lazy at times,but doing the nagging every lesson is putting me through the torture.

They are the ones that should be given the nag. But why do the teachers have to pull the rest down too? I dont get it. Sure it does give the rest a reality-check,but dont you think I had one too many already?

Just pretty much every lesson every teacher that comes in gives a nagging for the next 15-30mins. If you care about us,thank you. But if you want to give a wake up call to those who are not determine to do their work,you can always wait after the lesson or after school or when the class is given work to do.

The more you nag,the more we dont listen to you. And whats with the threats? Since the beginning of the year,teachers have been warning and threatening saying if we dont behave or whatever,they will write an offence slip. For god sake! No sec 5 student is afraid of it anymore.

Why? Simply because the actions taken are not helping. You only go detention. In detention,you just do your own work and wait for time to pass. How are the misbehaving students gonna learn from their mistakes that way?

You want students to learn from their mistakes,get it done then and there. Why wait till he/she commits another mistake? Or even few more mistakes. And seriously,loyang's way of disciplining is shit. I cannot believe I'm saying this but I wish Mr Azman and Mr Nassim was here to severely discipline the problematic ones.

And today,I've officially given up on the nags. Miss Sarifah came into a class and gave a nag again. I pretty much refuse to listen to her and did my own stuff. HAHA.

Till here.

oh! the pain!

Sports Day was a torture. The runners all the same. Went there just for attendance. Rushed home and then couldnt follow bro go Johore cos Dad was coming along. URGH! And finally I got the movie 21! Been dying for it!

Anyways,today went to AIA building around there to make an apointment for my facial treatment. Like finally! Altogether,totalled up to $2,070. Have 16 laser treatments(ouch!) and 11 facial treatments.

Mom was shaking her hand when she handed over her credit card to pay the amount. LOL. Then she said from now on,no more eating outside. I cook or dont cook,still must eat at home! HAHA. Well,first treatment starts tmr. And the next few treatments will be every Friday and Sunday.

Well,I'm gonna take my usual afternoon nap then go to cousin's house to visit granny. Bye!

some people just dont know when to give up!

I was being emotionally childish today. Dont ask why. Cos the reason is only for me to know. To Bong,SORRY for showing attitude to you when you have done nothing wrong to me.

Anyways,as you all know yesterday was April Fool's Day. Some jerk tried to mend his friendship with me by trying to make it sound like what happened over the past weeks did not occur at all. I know what his plan was. To mend the friendship without having to utter the word 'SORRY'.

Well,we did talk to each other as per normal. But the trust isnt there. Yeah sure he's my bestfriend for the past 11 years,but I cant trust him that easily anymore. TJ clan is asking me to forgive him. But why should I? Just because he's been my bestfriend for the past 11 years? BULL!

So what if he is? He didnt trust me either. And if he's reading this,then good! It might just give him some hint! Although I cant bear to lose someone like him,but he makes his own decisions and pick friends that he thinks can actually stay true to him. Obviously,I'm not one of them.

I've found my true friends and I'm sure they will remain true friends. Thats for now. I'm done with emotional entries.

In other news..
Today's tech-run was hectic,super sweaty,tiring and complicating. Desmond rolled his eyes at me. JERK! I dont know what I've done wrong. Menses I guess. LOL. Sleplt in the bus like pig then stayed back and waited for hakim.

And now I want to go back to sleep. BYE!

random entry

Today is April Fool's Day. Big deal. Though I did get a msg from Nizham at like 6+ in the morning? Unlikely of him to be awake at that time. But unfortunately,I was aware of the day and he didnt get to fool me. HAHA!

School was fine. Did experiment on Reflections for Physics. It was my first ever experiment that I had enjoyed. Random. The day went as usual. Mr Alvin was not present. I'm glad I didnt study my ass off for his test.

Had Drama at 3pm. Desmond came in late so we did our rehearsals first. We did some corrections for blockings and their speech and eye contacts. I swear it was much better after that! Much improvement.

Tmr will be heading down to ACS at Barker Road for tech-run. Will miss last period,which is MT as I need to leave by 12.30 and also English Oral. Hope the 5a2s survive. Good luck babies! LOL. And to drama kids,please PUT ON YOUR BEST BEHAVIOUR,FOCUS AND PAY ATTENTION!

This is our one and only chance to get everything right and done the first time. And lets have fun with our costumes. Btw,mine looks like Star Wars! But I still love it.

Till here. Gotta sneeze. random...